First of all, happy four months babe. :]
this will be a little messy. sincerest apologies. i wrote this in a hurry, i'm sorry it's not perfect.
This relationship is the toughest I've ever been in. I have never been so affected by a boyfriend. Every little thing you do has an effect on me, from your actions to your words... even to your lack of words and actions. You really got a hold on me, babe. We've been through A LOT these past four months... tears, heartache, jealousy, doubt, having a taste of what it feels like when the other lets go; laughs, smiles, love, genuine love, cooking for each other, fake mustaches, hugs, kisses, tongue licks, flicking (bahahahahaha!), and much much much much more! the good really outweighs the bad in this relationship. no matter how low we get, nothing and no one can tear us apart. what we have is something special, something real. something others would kill for and others naively throw away. i thought soul mates were a myth until i let myself genuinely fall for you. don't get me wrong, you had me at hello. but i fell for you that one day people call christmas when you kissed my cheek. i opened my heart to you at that starlight serenade musical. i willingly gave you my heart on may 20, my grad night.
this relationship is my second highest priority. this is something special to me, something i would never trade or jeopardize. i know it's hard for you because of all the other guys that try to take me away from you. i want you to put it in your head right now. THEY CAN NEVER TAKE ME AWAY FROM YOU. because it's not them who crosses my mind the ENTIRE day. it's not them who i think about when i look up at the stars both outside and in my room. it's not them that i trust completely to share myself with. it's you, only you. please remember that.
my only problem with this relationship is that i get jealous easily. :/ i don't like to admit that, but it's true. i try to keep it low key. and sometimes i don't feel like a priority to you, but i know i shouldn't feel that way cuz it's simply untrue.
my definition or the way i see this relationship, it's one of a kind. it's rare. it taught us to love unconditionally, to be patient, to break down barriers, to smile genuinely, to know how it feels to have your heart ripped out, to know what it's like to hold someone and feel like that's where you belong, to wanting to be with your significant other every minute, and to make sacrifices for the one you care about. i can't thank you enough for everything you've done for me, no one has stuck around like you have. i love you so much babe. i can't wait to marry you. <3
four months down, a lifetime to go.
