fuck finals with a rusty spoon!

i haven't blogged in TWO whole days!
you want to know why?
FUCKING FINALS AND MALERBEEZY WITH HER GAY ASS ESSAYS.
this week was hell week.
x_x

oh well.
I'M FUCKING GLAD THAT IT IS OVER.

hmmm... so what happened these passed two days?

i found out my new puppy is very protective over me... he hates my boyfriend... he wants to be the only boy in my life... ahahaha!

i want to shit on all of the sophomores' graves...

lakers won...
:D
tonight again!

poon jabbed kathleen today.
LOL!!!!
:P

no work today... thank you sweet baby jesus!

guess what i'm doing this weekend?!

i am becoming a hermit and i am going to stay indoors... away from the world until my tan fades...

WHY?!
because...
I HAVE TO STUDY FOR FUCKING FINALS!

fml.

hahaha!
oh well.
tomorrow... study sesh at j-bizzle's house!
:]

i highly doubt that we'll get any studying done. bahahaha!

well... i'll write more tomorrow.

uneventful week. only homework and essays... oh! and math.
FUCK SCHAAL IN THE ASS WITH A STD INFESTED NICKLE!
math can suck my dick. fa sho.

girlfriend voice.

today.
i went to a pic-nic with the family...
woop tee dildo do for me.
THEN.
i went to dana point to meet ronnie's parents...
THAT was some interesting stuff.
starbucks.
sushi lunch at mahe.
beach.
old people.
that cool guy singing show tunes in front of denny's.
teen magazines.
some weird guy asking me for my number and e-mail address right in front of ronnie and his parents.
blue is for nightmares series.
max peeing on ronnie's pillow.
&&&
ronnie's girlfriend voice.
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW.
hahahaha!
what a good way to end the long weekend.
well, the day is not over.
late night shinanigans with derek and joe.
fa sho!

good sunday.

GOTS ME A NEW PUPPY!
his name is max.
:]
little yorksie terrier.
:D
he's a cuddler.
teehee!


saw night at the museum today...
GOOOOOOOD movie.
i can't take that pharoh guy seriously...
it's the damn lisp!
it's soooo amusing!
bahahahahahaha!!!!

last night... rischae raped me...
yet again...
she jumped on top of me and put her bony vagina on my thigh and started clenching her labias...
FUCK MY LIFE.

bahahahahahaha!!!
"REUNITED AND IT FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELS SO GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!!!!"

lame saturday.

did absolutely NOTHING today.
the entire philippines is at my house.
STAR WARS MARATHON!
:D
but.... RISCHAE's here!!!!
had a good long talk with her about college, boys, life, religion, SATs, and all that fun jazz.
i really needed that talk.
god. i missed my number one. hahaha!
good way to reunite after a LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG time of not seeing each other.
:]

today went from lame to good.
i'm satisfied.

Look at that guy! He keeps staring at us!

TODAY.
i almost killed justine.
i made her choke on a doughnut.
bahahahaha!
today was a pretty fun day.
death glares.
windy car rides.
mashed potatoes.
steamed vegetables.
ranch dressing.
raw broccoli.
doughnut.
raspberry iced tea.
ICU.
becky.
stuffing charts.
margaret. babies.
no children allowed.
mean telephone calls.
half day at school.
work from 1-3.
found a lost dog and brought it to it's owner.
went on a coffee date with derek.
maria came over and sold me her books.
ronnie will be here in about 20 minutes.

TONIGHT.
dinner with like 35 different people.
melrose.
THEN
deadmau5 at hollywood palladium.
:D
HELL TO THE YES!
so freaking excited!

OH!!!!!!!
&&&
today is my best friend's birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JOJO!

melelele!

i skipped a day.
fahk. there goes my blogging streak.
oh well.
last night was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much fun.
Nine Inch Nails. Ronnie Fagardi. Pounding techno music. Colby Caillat.
My going 90 on the freeway while wasted. THAT is a story that i am going to tell my future children about when they ask for a car. hahahahahaha!
poor ronnie. had to carry me from my car to my house.
overall...
good night.
:D

today was a BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORING day.
except for justine and kathleen.
they rock my rizzle fa sho.
;]
after school laughter. horse anal raping. sharpie graffiti on mine and kathleen's legs. freak pictures.
hahaha!
OH! and i got my yearbook!
:D
found a picture of me and my red spectacles... talk about HOT SHIT!

Today. i found out that i am really a tumor on justine's hip... apparently i vag block her when she goes on dates. hahahahahahaha!!!

this is just because i remembered about this video just now. hahaha!

rose and candle.

Today was a sad day.
Today i had to say goodbye to my "big sister".
Rose and candle ceremony is the MOST depressing, yet exciting, thing to experience at st. lucy's.
Jessica Arcangel. My "big sister". You've made st. lucy's an experience i will never forget.
Damn Webster University for taking you away from me.
But i'm also excited for you. College life, it will be fun!
As soon as i sat down at the ceremony i couldn't help but cry my eyes out.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!
All of our memories just kept going through my head.
Meeting you sophomore year in "SHA BOO BOO"'s class.
The San Francisco move scare, and that giant ass card you and alyssa made me.
All the FOB accents, inside jokes, perverted conversations, and homosexual raping gestures, DJ Pizza Lunch, all your ghetto fab dance moves... I WILL MISS THEM ALL!
Baby doll, those flowers you gave me are BEAUTIFUL.
Too bad we didn't get to spend as much time together this year.
How will i possible survive st. lucy's without you?

Since we are both FOBs... i thought it would be appropriate to put up a video... ABOUT A BOAT!
:D

My heart is on my sleeve, wear it like a bruise or black eye. My badge, my weakness.

I'm just going to let everything out. I'm tired of keeping it all in. I don't expect anything to come out of this. I don't want to go on with life regretting that i never told you how i felt... so hear i go... i'm laying it all out... take it or leave it...

To Tyler Harrison,
I wrote this recently because... honestly... i miss you. But that doesn't mean i want you back. It's just that... i miss the old times... and nostalgia likes to kick me in the ass... This is my way of closure. To vent my feelings.
so here. a song for you.

I never thought i could tell
I'd feel this change in myself
Or feel for anyone else.
You always knew how i felt.
And every second i wait
I'd feel i wasted away
A single hour of day
You could be near me.

I think that it is time you
Welcome this heart of mine and
You will see what you've meant to me
And this meaning i've attached to time.

I've grown accustomed to hear
It isn't i you've held dear.
I keep my heart on my sleeve
In every hope you would see.
And there is nothing i want
Except for me in your thoughts,
The ones you keep to yourself
And hide from everyone else.

I'd ask of myself,
"Could it be anyone else?"
Because it's harder to tell,
Here without you.

I think that it is time you
Welcome this heart of mine and
You will see what you've meant to me
And this meaning i've attached to time.
You're the meaning i've attached to time.


To Ronnie Fagardi,
You never cease to amaze me. My darling, you are the best thing that has happen to me in a LOOOOONG time. This is my way of thanking you and telling you how much i appreciate you. I love you, Ronnie.
:]

And all this distance can't
Match my persistance, no.
And if it's in my hands
There's no way we're through.
I've never tried so hard,
or wanted it so bad.
It's why i'm dying to get to you.

Remember nights we spent
Barely an inch between us?
We could not care less
About who could have seen us.
The only thing that beats
Sleeping by your side
Is waking up to watch you
Open up your eyes.

Right now, i can't quite think about
One place i'd like to be without you
by my side.
Right now, i hope you'd rather be
Nowhere except sitting with me
Up all night.

There's something in the weight
Of all these words around us
That makes us not care less
If the world went on without us.
Nothing up their sleeves
Could ever break my hold.
We're living out the greatest
Story ever told.

And all this distance can't
But slow us down, my love.
And if you fall, i swear,
I'd pick you right back up.
I've never poured so much
Into a a song of truth.
It's cuz i'm dying to get to you.


To Joseph Villareal,
My best friend. You have always been there for me ever since the beginning of high school. Sure there were periods where we wouldn't talk for MONTHS. But when we started talking again, it was like there was no gap. :] You are one of the few males figures that i trust completely. You know me better than i know myself. I can't thank you enough for all the advice you've given me, and all the time you've spent comforting me and being my foundation. If it wasn't for you, i really don't know where i would be right now. I love you, my best friend.

I wrote this in a hurry.
So, i'm sorry if it's not perfect,
But it's the best way i have to show.

Cuz i sit on my roof and
I count up all the stars.
From where i am to
Exactly where you are.
Cuz every night finds
Me looking at the sky.
Always thinking about
This boy that makes me smile.

And every night
You're why
I try so hard
To get this right.
So you might see
Just how much
You really mean
To me.

And i sit on my roof
And count up all the stars.
From where i was
To exactly where we both are .
Cuz every night finds
Me looking at the sky.
Always thinking about
This boy that makes me smile.

yeah. that's right. i'm pretty much the apple pie in these towns.

LAZY SUNDAY.

nothing happened today.

no funny story.

no embarrassing moment.

no interesting questions.

didn't hear any cheesy pick-up lines.

NADA.

the only exciting thing that happened to me today was that i found my vhs of Hercules.

WOW.

and watched it.

WOW. WOW.

i promise. tomorrows will be better.

on a lighter note.

awkward turtle.

i HATE awkward moments.
hahahahaha. oh my gahhhh.
especially when someone points out that it's an awkward moment.

yesterday, during break katie referred to the "awkward turtle" by putting one hand over the other and moving her thumbs...
i didn't know that meant awkward moment so i was confused to the highest degree.
hahahahaha!

the point of me bringing up the awkward turtle hand gesture was because today.
i was at stater brothers with my friend reese.
buying groceries and whatnot. we had to go shopping for her mom's groceries cuz her mom broke her ankle.
so we got all of the stuff and the last thing on the list that she needed were tampons.
so we go to the aisle with all the feminine products and i ask reese, "which kind does your mom use?"
she pick up the biggest size they had.
i fell to the floor and started laughing like a retard.
so we proceeded to the check out counter and fell in line.
of course... we picked the one with the shortest line... but because god hates me... he placed the CUTEST cashier there...
so he rings all of our other items and the last thing he rings up is the box of tampons...
he looks at it and then looks at me...
and then i look at reese and she tells him, "don't worry. it's not hers. she doesn't have a wide set vagina. she's filipina. the total oppostie."
he just stares at me and starts laughing...
my face turns red and i turn to her
and she's doing the awkward turtle sign with her hands!
...i'm gonna kill her.

TALK ABOUT YOUR AWKWARD MOMENT!

my safe word will be hhhhwhiskey!

Andy Samberg. So fahking cute.
Rhio:"I want to have his little dark jew-fro babies."
Kathleen:"HAHAHAHA! omg. You should curl the sides of their hair and make them where that hat!!!"
hahahahaha! i'll add some matzo to that son of a bitch.
;]

Today was THE BEST day that i've had in a looooooong time.
From B block 'til work. I couldn't stop laughing.
:]

Kathleen. I love you like a lonely fat kid loves porn.
HOLY SHIET!
Watching andy samberg videos during class while singing dick in a box/motherlover/jizz in my pants/i'm on a boat/lazy sunday.
Girl you make my day like no other!
<333

Rhio: "Kathleen. Ronnie's so hot... i want to lick his abs..."
Kathleen: "WHAT?! YOU WANT TO LICK HIS ASS?!"
Bahahaha! bitch. you crazy!
"You're lucky i like kissing your eyebrows."
"Your pubicles got me all hot and bothered."
"I want to punch your jeans."
"Your arm hairs turn me on."
"You're nipple hairs are sexy."
"Be thankful i like kankles."
WTF?! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Today was a good day.
:]

During work Justine and I laughed for a good hour straight.
Talking about lame celebrity jokes, harassing the nurses and visitors, doughnuts and iced tea, making weird faces, FOB accents, AND butt "pincing". OH MAN, OH MAN. She makes my imaginary wang go WEEEEEEEEEEE! fa sho.

Speaking of lame celebrity jokes... I told a Justine the one about Lil' Wayne's favourite breakfast food... (btw. the answer is OME-LET OME-LET OME-OMELET. hahahaha!) I also told her what Beethoven's favourite fruit was... (BA-NA-NA-NAHHH! bahahahahahaha!) Let's not forget Bruce Lee's favourite drink... (WAH-TAH!)

A couple more lame jokes for your entertainment... :]

What is Snoop Dog's favorite weather?
-Drizzle.

What did Haley Joel Osment find on the top of Mt. Everest?
-Icy dead people (i see dead people)

Why did McCauley Culkin get married?
-He was tired of being home alone.

What dessert doesn’t P.Diddy like any more?
-J-Lo! (Jello)

How does Michael Jackson pick his nose?
-From a catalog.

It was once believed that Chuck Norris actually lost a fight to a pirate, but that is a lie, created by Chuck Norris himself to lure more pirates to him. Pirates never were very smart.

These are BEYOND lame... hahahaha.
BUT their stupidity made my day.
So if you don't like it...
YOU CAN SUCK MY DICK, BUT KEEP IT REAL. I DON'T NEED YOUR SPIT ALL IN MY PEE-HOLE.
hahahahahahahahaha!!!

suck my dick with a condom on, bitch!

my dick with a what? OH!
hahaha!
love that song.
:D

Today Ronnie and I began reminiscing on the time we went to the shoppes.
We sat outside near the water fountain next to this one guy. A really pretty girl passed by and he tells her, "Girl... yous chunk-ay!" She looked at him and then punched him in the face! Flipped him off and walked away. Fucking epic. Couldn't stop laughing. Apparently he was complimenting her and was telling her that she was hot.
BAHAHAHAHA!!!
dumb ass.

The point of me bringing that whole story up was because today, while at Starbucks, some guy tried to get my attention using a really cheesy pick-up line on me...
"Hi, the voices in my head told me to come over and talk to you."
OMG. i couldn't help but laugh.

On the drive home i started to think about all the lame pick-up lines i've heard in my life...

Hey, don't I know you? Yeah, you're the girl with the beautiful smile.

Baby, I'm no Fred Flintstone, but I can make your Bedrock!

Did you clean your pants with Windex? I can practically see myself in them.

Pardon me miss, I seem to have lost my phone number, could I borrow yours?

Hey baby you're so fine you make me stutter, wha-wha-what's your name?

My name isn't Elmo, but you can tickle me any time you want.

Hi, my name is Doug. That's "god" spelled backwards with a little bit of you wrapped up in it.

I have a .357 magnum pointed at your kidney. Wanna go get some coffee?

Excuse me, but do you have tickets? (Tickets for what?) *Points to arm and flex* Tickets to the gun show!

Do you have a band-Aid? Cuz I just scraped my knee falling for you.

Do you have a map? Cuz Honey, I just keep gettin lost in your eyes.

Girl, you gotta be tired cuz you been runnin' through my mind all day.

Help, something's wrong with my eyes - I just can't take them off you.

Are you O.K.? Because heaven's a long fall from here.

You must be one hell of a thief cuz you stole my heart from across the room.

Baby, if you were words on a page, you'd be what they call FINE PRINT!

Did the sun come out or did you just smile at me?

Wow. I've had some pretty lame encounters in my life... boys are so funny.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! oh man. today was a better day.
:]


It's not gossip if it's the truth.
I'm sick of always writing songs for you to slit your wrists to.
So which is it: the boy who writes the songs or the boy who's in them?
Who's the girl? Is this truth or is he writing fiction?
Hand over my heart, gun to my head.
I swear to God I'm through with this.
I am the worst liar, I know.

oh balls...

this week is going by so slowly...
shoot me.
today was BY FAR the longest day this week.
-_-

still suffering from writer's block. HOLY HELL. it's annoying.
so many thoughts that prevent me from focusing... so many questions!

If ghosts go through walls, why don’t they fall through the floor?

Why isn’t evaporated milk a gas?

When you feel down, why do people ask what’s up?

In horse racing, why do they award the rider and not the horse?

If insects are so obsessed with bright lights, why don’t they fly off to the sun?

What happens if you die in your dream?

Why do people more commonly skip breakfast than any other meal, considering that this is the time when the stomach is emptiest?

How are children supposed to take medicine if it’s meant to be kept out of their reach?

Why do people talk about ‘girlie’ things but never ‘boyie’ things?

If you sneezed on a computer, would it get a virus?

Can you dream of having a dream?

Why do we close doors and windows to reduce noise, considering that sound travels better through solids?

What did the designer of the drawing board go back to when his/her original design was a failure?

Why do ‘a fat chance’ and ‘a slim chance’ mean the same thing?

Why does your nose run and your feet smell?

Why is ‘abbreviation’ such a long word?

Why are there seeds in seeded grapes, but no bones in a boned fillet?

When people go mental, why do they get physically violent?

If you get a beer belly by drinking beer, do you get a pot belly by smoking pot?

Why does ‘dyslexia’ have to be so hard to spell?

If you try to fail, and succeed, which have you done?

Does God believe that there are atheists?

all these questions travel through my head.
retarded? maybe i am.
do i need to start taking sleeping pills? HELLO, DRUGGIE.

on the bright side, school is almost out!
:D
june 3rd!
OH YESSSS!!!

OH! i finished recording my song with nick.
:]
i'm pretty excited. never in my life would i have thought i would be writing songs for a band.
WOW. i guess i'm putting my insomnia to good use. sleepless nights = rhio's constant song writing. hahaha!


i've gotta sound so sincere.
i'll surely strike a chord
and you'll make your way here.
i wanna write words that move
and make your heart skip beats.
and if i can't do that
at least you'll tap your feet.
and if i should ask would you be happy
to learn these words and sing them at me.
take my hand and hold,
and show me what you know

i gotta be rational
and take my time with this.
i'm making god damn sure
there's not a thing i'll miss.
i work with a balanced heart
and never with steady hands.
when you're around i can't speak,
but i know my songs can.

since i have one...

might as well use this little blogspot of mine. hahaha!

TODAY. was an okay day.
i've finished quite a few songs and i'm ready to start making the music for them.
hopefully nick will be ready to record them with me soon.

i started on a new song. i know what i want to write but all the words are just coming out wrong.
-_-

i've lost inspiration. my jumbled thoughts and pressure from every other aspect of my life has made it kind of difficult for me to just sit and focus.

i'll work on it some more tonight. try to make the words right. [didn't mean to gay rhyme. hahaha!]