BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
fucking LA LA LA LA LA LA LA LA LA LA LA LA LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE SNL.
:D
it's been almost a month since i last blogged.
OH BALLS.
LOL!
well... what has happened this past month?
ummmmmmm.......
NEW MOON.
was WAAAAAAAAAAAAY better than twilight. cuz rob pat was barely in it.
:]
honestly. nothing has really happened to me lately.
got my wisdom teeth removed.
last football game.
mallin' it with kaka and jizzle boobie.
movies.
i've been kind of secluding myself again...
i'm falling back into the confines of my room.
snuggled up in bed with my hot tea and an intriguing book.
the cold weather does that to me.
:]
overall.
everything has been chill.
except for past assholes who are trying to create shit.
but that's alright. no harm done.
exactly one week until i turn 18!
:O
excited? not really.
nervous? sure?
nonchalant? YOU BET YOUR SWEET TITS!
lol!
OH!
something did happen in this past month.
i've discovered something...
I AM IN LOVE.
andy samberg. joseph gordon-levitt. ryan reynolds. emma stone.
:D
mmmmmm i'd bang them all in a heatbeat. <3
Monday, November 30, 2009
Saturday, November 7, 2009
cardigan weather.
i'm really feeling the vibes of november. :]
HAPPY NOVEMBER, MY DEAREST READERS!
so as promised... i am going to go into further detail of how things are going as of late.
:]
after school rendezvous.
they are AMAZING.
everyday after school i go to a local coffee shop in chino hills and have study sesh's with this one barista, ryne tate. :] he's cooler than peaches. haha!
then after all that good stuff, i go off to riverside/moval for some dance practice. killer.
football games.
i barely started going to them this year. hahahaha!
and thanks to those football games...
i got to see old friends, meet some new ones, and create memories with some of the greatest friends i will ever have.
loves of my life:
justine
lindsey
dylan
ratty
jenna
aaron
kairos 63.
i love my st. lucy's girls...
i wish EVERYONE could have gone to kairos at the same time.
i've made friendships with people i never thought i'd have anything in common with.
gabi valenzuela is my new sister.<3
i've got a new support system that i know for a fact will always be here for me.
saikali's super sixes:
michelle
gabi
alex
jamie
victoria
sophie
kellie
ruby
i love you girls.
disneyland.
for linds' birthday was some good times.
:]
lots of laughs.
aladdin broke my heart that day though... and so did captain hook.
lots of long lines. rude people. genuine assholes. creepers. and food.
hahahaha!
but an over all good day.
knott's scary farm was a no go.
:[
next year for sure.
homecoming.
WAS INDESCRIBABLE.
greatest group ever.
minus phil hill. but i still love the dude.
bahahahaha!
after homecoming was some good times.
:]
momma.
no words can ever express how much i love her.
she's the bees knees. f'reals.
10.16.09 "that's when i knew it was nothing but uphill from here."
First Dance.
It started with your hips.
So I moved up to your lips.
To take a chance.
Ask for a dance.
Cause you're the cutest thing on this side of the world.
So I moved to the dance floor.
With instincts and nothing more.
I had ants in my pants.
I did the boogie dance,and there was nothing to do but laugh.
So I made another leap, hoping to sweep you off your feet.
I said,
"Baby maybe we could bust this joint and see if my place is open to chill"
If you could just move on with your life just like you do.
Just like you shoo be do do do.
And you could make everything alright just like i want you to.
Because ever since the first dance all i thought about was loving on you.
HOLY SHIT. EXACTLY ONE MONTH UNTIL I'M 18.
HAPPY NOVEMBER, MY DEAREST READERS!
so as promised... i am going to go into further detail of how things are going as of late.
:]
after school rendezvous.
they are AMAZING.
everyday after school i go to a local coffee shop in chino hills and have study sesh's with this one barista, ryne tate. :] he's cooler than peaches. haha!
then after all that good stuff, i go off to riverside/moval for some dance practice. killer.
football games.
i barely started going to them this year. hahahaha!
and thanks to those football games...
i got to see old friends, meet some new ones, and create memories with some of the greatest friends i will ever have.
loves of my life:
justine
lindsey
dylan
ratty
jenna
aaron
kairos 63.
i love my st. lucy's girls...
i wish EVERYONE could have gone to kairos at the same time.
i've made friendships with people i never thought i'd have anything in common with.
gabi valenzuela is my new sister.<3
i've got a new support system that i know for a fact will always be here for me.
saikali's super sixes:
michelle
gabi
alex
jamie
victoria
sophie
kellie
ruby
i love you girls.
disneyland.
for linds' birthday was some good times.
:]
lots of laughs.
aladdin broke my heart that day though... and so did captain hook.
lots of long lines. rude people. genuine assholes. creepers. and food.
hahahaha!
but an over all good day.
knott's scary farm was a no go.
:[
next year for sure.
homecoming.
WAS INDESCRIBABLE.
greatest group ever.
minus phil hill. but i still love the dude.
bahahahaha!
after homecoming was some good times.
:]
momma.
no words can ever express how much i love her.
she's the bees knees. f'reals.
10.16.09 "that's when i knew it was nothing but uphill from here."
First Dance.
It started with your hips.
So I moved up to your lips.
To take a chance.
Ask for a dance.
Cause you're the cutest thing on this side of the world.
So I moved to the dance floor.
With instincts and nothing more.
I had ants in my pants.
I did the boogie dance,and there was nothing to do but laugh.
So I made another leap, hoping to sweep you off your feet.
I said,
"Baby maybe we could bust this joint and see if my place is open to chill"
If you could just move on with your life just like you do.
Just like you shoo be do do do.
And you could make everything alright just like i want you to.
Because ever since the first dance all i thought about was loving on you.
HOLY SHIT. EXACTLY ONE MONTH UNTIL I'M 18.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
wsup with sen10r year...
after school rendezvous.
football games.
kairos 63.
disneyland.
knott's scary farm.
homecoming.
momma letting me drive myself to all ends of the earth?!
this year is a good year.
:D
things have been nothing but UP UP UP!
i'll be sure to go into greater detail of things.
xoxo
r h i o
football games.
kairos 63.
disneyland.
knott's scary farm.
homecoming.
momma letting me drive myself to all ends of the earth?!
this year is a good year.
:D
things have been nothing but UP UP UP!
i'll be sure to go into greater detail of things.
xoxo
r h i o
Saturday, October 17, 2009
It's happening again.
i. am. love. drunk.
holy shit. holy shit. holy shit.
it's been a while.
yesterday was amazing.
huzzah for chipotle. parks. xbox 360. good company. laughs. and football games.
homecoming. it's gonna be a good one. :]
holy shit. holy shit. holy shit.
it's been a while.
yesterday was amazing.
huzzah for chipotle. parks. xbox 360. good company. laughs. and football games.
homecoming. it's gonna be a good one. :]
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
I've been walking in the rain again...
too bad.
for the record, we were never friends...
TODAY. was an amazing day.
good music. good morning texts. good morning car conversations.
great talk with my school counselor. great friends. great weather.
orgasmic rain. orgasmic park. orgasmic company.
my date was a complete and total success. :]
hopefully there are many more to come.
never have i had so much fun with rain and a slide. hahaha!
and the s'mores and hot chocolate made the day even grander!
:D
the only downer on my day is that i am now fighting a cold.
oh well. it was completely worth it.
:]
for the record, we were never friends...
TODAY. was an amazing day.
good music. good morning texts. good morning car conversations.
great talk with my school counselor. great friends. great weather.
orgasmic rain. orgasmic park. orgasmic company.
my date was a complete and total success. :]
hopefully there are many more to come.
never have i had so much fun with rain and a slide. hahaha!
and the s'mores and hot chocolate made the day even grander!
:D
the only downer on my day is that i am now fighting a cold.
oh well. it was completely worth it.
:]
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
so bury me...
...in memory.
complicated. complicated. complicated.
it's as simple as that.
who knew?
-___-
gahh damn.
complicated. complicated. complicated.
it's as simple as that.
who knew?
-___-
gahh damn.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
my medicine.
joseph ryan villareal.
my best friend. my kanin. my g-frannn. my free meals at mcdo.
YOU ARE AMAZING.
you always know how to make me feel better.
:]
"Here you are telling me your heading home,
And here I am asking why you're all alone.
You're telling me your feel weak and sick,
So I go to a store wondering which medicine to pick.
Bring you medicine and soup with some lime,
I'll make my way there at any given time.
For you I'll put everything aside for later,
Just to be there and make you feel better.
We can spend the whole day together,
Because you know you always matter.
So i'll fly there no matter the weather.
Day or night, rain or shine, cold or hot,
You know i'll always be the one you got.
Even if I'm miles away from where you are,
I hope these words will make you stronger
'Cuz you know my love for you is always there,
Next to you whispering 'I'll always be here.'
Because it's my medicine for you."
you are the bees knees.
<333
my best friend. my kanin. my g-frannn. my free meals at mcdo.
YOU ARE AMAZING.
you always know how to make me feel better.
:]
"Here you are telling me your heading home,
And here I am asking why you're all alone.
You're telling me your feel weak and sick,
So I go to a store wondering which medicine to pick.
Bring you medicine and soup with some lime,
I'll make my way there at any given time.
For you I'll put everything aside for later,
Just to be there and make you feel better.
We can spend the whole day together,
Because you know you always matter.
So i'll fly there no matter the weather.
Day or night, rain or shine, cold or hot,
You know i'll always be the one you got.
Even if I'm miles away from where you are,
I hope these words will make you stronger
'Cuz you know my love for you is always there,
Next to you whispering 'I'll always be here.'
Because it's my medicine for you."
you are the bees knees.
<333
Friday, September 4, 2009
i'm cuddlely, BITCH!
If I was a flower growing wild and free
All I'd want is you to be my sweet honey bee.
And if I was a tree growing tall and green
All I'd want is you to shade me and be my leaves.
happy september readers!
:D
so i'm kind of, sort of, getting the hang of things.
:]
i am in love with HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER.
All I'd want is you to be my sweet honey bee.
And if I was a tree growing tall and green
All I'd want is you to shade me and be my leaves.
happy september readers!
:D
so i'm kind of, sort of, getting the hang of things.
:]
i am in love with HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
hum hallelujah.
i'm going down, down in an earlier round, my dears.
today was a hard day.
i never knew i could cry that much.
i haven't been to church in the looooooooooooongest time...
confession. i never appreciated it until today.
my conscience is cleared, yay!
[but not by the hail marys and the our fathers i had to say after confession, but by the fact that i got to let everything out that i've kept in for so long.]
but my problems are still here... taunting me.
i have two major problems that are plucking my pubes in broad fucking daylight.
[btw. just an expression. you'll learn to accept my grotesque terminology.]
dearest readers, please don't judge me.
problem number one.
COLLEGE. that's all i have to say...
problem number two.
my home life.
my mother and i have switched roles.
she can only handle so much. it's my turn to be her backbone.
today i had to kick out my step father.
every day is filled with raw, red eyes, a new bruise, and another stab to the heart.
i was already neglected by my first father.
now i have to turn my back on my second one.
poor ross. my little brother is going through everything that i went through...
all the false hope, all the broken promises, depression, physical and emotional pain, and confussion.
no child should go through what i've been through.
to all you genuine asshole who think it may not seem like much and it may seem like other kids have worse problems than i do, i have two words for you...
FUCK YOU.
you're not in my situation.
but if you've gone through way worse or you're not one to judge, you have my sympathy/gratitude and that "fuck you" was not directed at you.
i no longer know how to manage everything.
i need to step it up.
changing my name to cinderella.
the cinderella before the prince charming and the dream come true.
i'm now all about the cleaning, cooking, laundry, dishes, oh! and being the official family chauffeur...
i need to figure out how to balance all the chores with school work and studying, my friends, my family time, my volunteer time, and my boyfriend? no. is that where we are at now? ideffingk.
2008 was so simple.
at the stroke of midnight...
i said hello to 2009 and goodbye to the good life.
don't get me wrong. this year has been filled with some of the best moments of my life.
but out of all 17 years of my existence... this year has been by FARRRR the hardest for me.
but i guess we all need to suck it up and simply move on... right?
He's everything I want and more.
He's everything I want for sure.
He's everything that I want and to adore.
Well, baby, I am overly attracted
And terribly convinced that he could be my lover,
But I think I lost my chance.
You had me at first glance.
today was a hard day.
i never knew i could cry that much.
i haven't been to church in the looooooooooooongest time...
confession. i never appreciated it until today.
my conscience is cleared, yay!
[but not by the hail marys and the our fathers i had to say after confession, but by the fact that i got to let everything out that i've kept in for so long.]
but my problems are still here... taunting me.
i have two major problems that are plucking my pubes in broad fucking daylight.
[btw. just an expression. you'll learn to accept my grotesque terminology.]
dearest readers, please don't judge me.
problem number one.
COLLEGE. that's all i have to say...
problem number two.
my home life.
my mother and i have switched roles.
she can only handle so much. it's my turn to be her backbone.
today i had to kick out my step father.
every day is filled with raw, red eyes, a new bruise, and another stab to the heart.
i was already neglected by my first father.
now i have to turn my back on my second one.
poor ross. my little brother is going through everything that i went through...
all the false hope, all the broken promises, depression, physical and emotional pain, and confussion.
no child should go through what i've been through.
to all you genuine asshole who think it may not seem like much and it may seem like other kids have worse problems than i do, i have two words for you...
FUCK YOU.
you're not in my situation.
but if you've gone through way worse or you're not one to judge, you have my sympathy/gratitude and that "fuck you" was not directed at you.
i no longer know how to manage everything.
i need to step it up.
changing my name to cinderella.
the cinderella before the prince charming and the dream come true.
i'm now all about the cleaning, cooking, laundry, dishes, oh! and being the official family chauffeur...
i need to figure out how to balance all the chores with school work and studying, my friends, my family time, my volunteer time, and my boyfriend? no. is that where we are at now? ideffingk.
2008 was so simple.
at the stroke of midnight...
i said hello to 2009 and goodbye to the good life.
don't get me wrong. this year has been filled with some of the best moments of my life.
but out of all 17 years of my existence... this year has been by FARRRR the hardest for me.
but i guess we all need to suck it up and simply move on... right?
He's everything I want and more.
He's everything I want for sure.
He's everything that I want and to adore.
Well, baby, I am overly attracted
And terribly convinced that he could be my lover,
But I think I lost my chance.
You had me at first glance.
Friday, August 21, 2009
first guy, first try, first lie, first goodbye.
ohhh christofer... how i miss you and your amazing lyrics.
come back and visit me again.
:D
damn muhh fuggin missouri for taking you away from me.
:/
but anywho. school has begun. FML.
today is my first friday of the school year and i feel EXHAUSTED. no bueno.
it makes me worry about how i'm going to feel the rest of the year...
add some college applications, a debut, homework, projects, paper, essays, etc. into the mix and BAM! instant breakdown...
ugghhh...
i was raped of my summer. it ended too quickly.
hahahahahahaha!!!
so recently i've been on youtube a lot... idk why... but i've been watching so many videos and i came across a video by gabe bondoc...
HE'S SO CUTE. :]
this made my day. <333
come back and visit me again.
:D
damn muhh fuggin missouri for taking you away from me.
:/
but anywho. school has begun. FML.
today is my first friday of the school year and i feel EXHAUSTED. no bueno.
it makes me worry about how i'm going to feel the rest of the year...
add some college applications, a debut, homework, projects, paper, essays, etc. into the mix and BAM! instant breakdown...
ugghhh...
i was raped of my summer. it ended too quickly.
"Today, I stopped by a street cart selling muffins and asked the guy if he was the muffin man. He gave my red and white striped sweater one look and said 'Maybe, but only if you're Waldo.' Touche Muffin Man."
hahahahahahaha!!!
so recently i've been on youtube a lot... idk why... but i've been watching so many videos and i came across a video by gabe bondoc...
HE'S SO CUTE. :]
this made my day. <333
Thursday, August 13, 2009
up, up, down, down, left, right, left, right, b, a, start.
just because we use cheats doesn't mean we're not smart. i don't see what anyone can see in anyone else but you. i miss listening to the moldy peaches.
well ahoy readers!
haven't been on this blogspot of mine in a long while.
so. since i haven't been able to do this in a while. i feel i need to let out some steam and complain like a whiny little bitch.
but please... bare with me. it's been a rough couple of weeks.
so school starts in six days. woop tee fucking dildo do for me.
-_____________________________________________-
what a boner breaker.
i am for shizz becoming a hermit and locking myself indoors with all my books and school supplies for the next 9 months.
OH BALLS.
i am committing social suicide and giving up my social life. like i really ever had one. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
i am going to fail all my classes and i am probably not getting into the college that i want.
x_x
fuck fuckity fucking fuckers fucking fuckity fuck.
blehhhhhhhhh. i fail.
but to take things on a more serious note.
the saying is true... "every hello ends with a goodbye."
which is probably one of the most painful things i could ever say.
i hate saying goodbye. especially when it's something that changed me... for the better.
hello school, goodbye to the one thing that made me genuinely smile.
i'll miss you, babe.
Take care
Of yourself darling
I guess this is goodbye
Tomorrow's coming quicker
Than yesterday came today
Promise you
Won't forget about me
So these moments spent
Are coming to an end
I'm counting seconds
Till' next time again
Listen
One, two, three
Four, five
Six, seven
Eight, nine
We couln't change it
If we tried
One, two, three, four
Goodbye
These moments spent
Are coming to an end
I'm counting seconds
Until next time again
i'll miss you, summer nights '09.
well ahoy readers!
haven't been on this blogspot of mine in a long while.
so. since i haven't been able to do this in a while. i feel i need to let out some steam and complain like a whiny little bitch.
but please... bare with me. it's been a rough couple of weeks.
so school starts in six days. woop tee fucking dildo do for me.
-_____________________________________________-
what a boner breaker.
i am for shizz becoming a hermit and locking myself indoors with all my books and school supplies for the next 9 months.
OH BALLS.
i am committing social suicide and giving up my social life. like i really ever had one. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
i am going to fail all my classes and i am probably not getting into the college that i want.
x_x
fuck fuckity fucking fuckers fucking fuckity fuck.
blehhhhhhhhh. i fail.
but to take things on a more serious note.
the saying is true... "every hello ends with a goodbye."
which is probably one of the most painful things i could ever say.
i hate saying goodbye. especially when it's something that changed me... for the better.
hello school, goodbye to the one thing that made me genuinely smile.
i'll miss you, babe.
Take care
Of yourself darling
I guess this is goodbye
Tomorrow's coming quicker
Than yesterday came today
Promise you
Won't forget about me
So these moments spent
Are coming to an end
I'm counting seconds
Till' next time again
Listen
One, two, three
Four, five
Six, seven
Eight, nine
We couln't change it
If we tried
One, two, three, four
Goodbye
These moments spent
Are coming to an end
I'm counting seconds
Until next time again
i'll miss you, summer nights '09.
Thursday, July 30, 2009
You taste just like glitter mixed with rock and roll.
I like you a lot lot.
Think you're really hot hot.
I know you think you're special.
When we dance real crazy.
Glam-aphonic, electronic, disco baby.
I like you a lot lot.
All we want is hot hot.
Boys boys boys.
We like boys in cars.
Boys boys boys.
Buy us drinks in bars.
ahh! i effing love lady gaga. she's some hot stuff. <3
so this morning i woke up feeling like shit... BIG TIME.
i drove myself to the emergency room and waited for 2 hours just to get checked out.
my doctor told me that my throat is swollen and inflamed.
they stuck a long cotton swab down my throat and started rubbing the walls...
*gag*
waited five more minutes then my doctor walks in...
turns out that i have strep throat... WTF?!
how the hell did i get that?!
so she gave me a choice: get a shot of penicillin or take pills three times a day for the next 10 days...
i was like... doc... give me that needle!
then she left and i sat there for another half an hour.
then the nurse walks in... she's pretty funny.
i rolled up my shirt sleeve so that i could get my shot and she just looks at me like i'm the epitome of retards.
she then informs me that i will not be getting the shot on my arm... so i was thinking she was going to stick my thigh!
i started to panic... i continued to ask her... if not my arm then where?
she pointed her finger... RIGHT AT MY BUTT! and laughed.
fml.
so she turns me over and says... i'll stick you on the count of five... okay ready? one... FIVE!
son of a bitch.
all you can hear was me screaming in an angry tone "OWWWW!" hahahahaha!
she laughed... AGAIN.
genuine asshole.
x_x
then i was confined to a room for 15 minutes just in case i was allergic to the penicillin.
i'm not. thank god. i don't need anything else shot in me... haha!
i texted a few people telling them of my shitty morning.
they all laughed at me.
*pout*
hahahaha!
justine: hahaha! oh my god dude! did it hurt? oh man, that is fucking priceless.
me: i know! hahahahahahahahahahahaha
justine: ahahahaha! holy hell dude! you have the weirdest things happen to you.
me: shut up. haha!
me: so i got a shot on my ass today...
rosalie: did you really?! hahaha
me: the doctor told me to do ass clenches and move around my butt so it won't get too soar. hahaha!
rosalie: hahahahahaha do that on ross's face
me: NO! freak!
this made my day... hahahaha!
Think you're really hot hot.
I know you think you're special.
When we dance real crazy.
Glam-aphonic, electronic, disco baby.
I like you a lot lot.
All we want is hot hot.
Boys boys boys.
We like boys in cars.
Boys boys boys.
Buy us drinks in bars.
ahh! i effing love lady gaga. she's some hot stuff. <3
so this morning i woke up feeling like shit... BIG TIME.
i drove myself to the emergency room and waited for 2 hours just to get checked out.
my doctor told me that my throat is swollen and inflamed.
they stuck a long cotton swab down my throat and started rubbing the walls...
*gag*
waited five more minutes then my doctor walks in...
turns out that i have strep throat... WTF?!
how the hell did i get that?!
so she gave me a choice: get a shot of penicillin or take pills three times a day for the next 10 days...
i was like... doc... give me that needle!
then she left and i sat there for another half an hour.
then the nurse walks in... she's pretty funny.
i rolled up my shirt sleeve so that i could get my shot and she just looks at me like i'm the epitome of retards.
she then informs me that i will not be getting the shot on my arm... so i was thinking she was going to stick my thigh!
i started to panic... i continued to ask her... if not my arm then where?
she pointed her finger... RIGHT AT MY BUTT! and laughed.
fml.
so she turns me over and says... i'll stick you on the count of five... okay ready? one... FIVE!
son of a bitch.
all you can hear was me screaming in an angry tone "OWWWW!" hahahahaha!
she laughed... AGAIN.
genuine asshole.
x_x
then i was confined to a room for 15 minutes just in case i was allergic to the penicillin.
i'm not. thank god. i don't need anything else shot in me... haha!
i texted a few people telling them of my shitty morning.
they all laughed at me.
*pout*
hahahaha!
i Need n3w sn (4:54:37 PM) : you've just been violated
i Need n3w sn (4:54:38 PM) : :]
ohmyr h i o (4:54:56 PM) : T.T
i Need n3w sn (4:55:08 PM) : i feel terrible.
ohmyr h i o (4:55:09 PM) : and it wasnt even by some one i wanted!
ohmyr h i o (4:55:12 PM) : wait
i Need n3w sn (4:55:14 PM) : ahahahahaa
ohmyr h i o (4:55:15 PM) : why?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
i Need n3w sn (4:55:23 PM) : cuz you've been violated by a fat nurse
me: hey justine. guess what? i got a shot on my butt. x_x
me: hey justine. guess what? i got a shot on my butt. x_x
me: i know! hahahahahahahahahahahaha
justine: ahahahaha! holy hell dude! you have the weirdest things happen to you.
me: shut up. haha!
me: so i got a shot on my ass today...
rosalie: did you really?! hahaha
me: the doctor told me to do ass clenches and move around my butt so it won't get too soar. hahaha!
rosalie: hahahahahaha do that on ross's face
me: NO! freak!
this made my day... hahahaha!
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
cigarettes and cola.
disgusting combination.
so i tried giving up smoking...
i failed.
hahaha!
hopefully i'll get over this shit soon.
glendale galleria. pretty shnazzy place.
red robin.
went on a shopping frenzy.
spent a lot of money. not good.
bought michael a lollipop. hahaha!
but i ate it. :P
went to hollywood.
took pics with those characters that walk around on the sidewalk.
zorro tried to rape me.
wolverine made me mad cuz his hair wasn't big enough.
spider man seemed like an asshole.
batman was entertaining.
the star wars clone was... silent.
jack sparrow. was fucking authentic! not only did he look like a pirate... HE SMELLED LIKE ONE TOO! yu yu yu yu yu yuuuuuuck! but he was le shit. made me laugh.
chucky... fucking scared me...
playboy bunny. was a cougar.
after hollywood we went to bjs.
now i am home. bored to tears and updating my ipod.
i bought new chapstick... and lost it.
:[
THAT ruined my day.
LOL!
to change the subject COMPLETELY.
i've been thinking a lot lately.
i've got a couple of questions that have been bugging me for the past few days.
did that really happen?
should i take what happened to heart or just keep telling myself that it was just spur of the moment?
& also who really DID let the dogs out?
hahaha. okay. not so much the last one. but the first two gots me a thinkin. haha!
idk. i'm just being paranoid rhio. as usual.
i'm almost guaranteed to mess this up.
hopefully i don't take things too seriously.
i know i shouldn't be expecting anything.
but on the plus side.
these past few days i've been...
nothing but smiles.
laughing and scrunching up my face.
trying to change some of my bad habits.
checking my phone nonstop. hahaha!
so i'm spending more time with this cutie.
i think he's the bees knees.
even though he's a TOTAL creeper.
he pretty much has me smiling from sunrise to sunset.
because i know for a fact that you read my blogs. <3
so i tried giving up smoking...
i failed.
hahaha!
hopefully i'll get over this shit soon.
glendale galleria. pretty shnazzy place.
red robin.
went on a shopping frenzy.
spent a lot of money. not good.
bought michael a lollipop. hahaha!
but i ate it. :P
went to hollywood.
took pics with those characters that walk around on the sidewalk.
zorro tried to rape me.
wolverine made me mad cuz his hair wasn't big enough.
spider man seemed like an asshole.
batman was entertaining.
the star wars clone was... silent.
jack sparrow. was fucking authentic! not only did he look like a pirate... HE SMELLED LIKE ONE TOO! yu yu yu yu yu yuuuuuuck! but he was le shit. made me laugh.
chucky... fucking scared me...
playboy bunny. was a cougar.
after hollywood we went to bjs.
now i am home. bored to tears and updating my ipod.
i bought new chapstick... and lost it.
:[
THAT ruined my day.
LOL!
to change the subject COMPLETELY.
i've been thinking a lot lately.
i've got a couple of questions that have been bugging me for the past few days.
did that really happen?
should i take what happened to heart or just keep telling myself that it was just spur of the moment?
& also who really DID let the dogs out?
hahaha. okay. not so much the last one. but the first two gots me a thinkin. haha!
idk. i'm just being paranoid rhio. as usual.
i'm almost guaranteed to mess this up.
hopefully i don't take things too seriously.
i know i shouldn't be expecting anything.
but on the plus side.
these past few days i've been...
nothing but smiles.
laughing and scrunching up my face.
trying to change some of my bad habits.
checking my phone nonstop. hahaha!
so i'm spending more time with this cutie.
i think he's the bees knees.
even though he's a TOTAL creeper.
he pretty much has me smiling from sunrise to sunset.
because i know for a fact that you read my blogs. <3
Sunday, July 26, 2009
i think that possibly, maybe,
i'm falling for you. yes, there's a chance that i've fallen quite hard over you.
man. i wish i wrote that.
cuuuuuuuute song. <3
landon pigg knew how to make a girl's heart melt, f'reals.
yesterday was a good day.
disneyland with jeremy and his family, reg, raymond, and rosalie.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JORDAN!
:D
BUT disneyland did not meet up to my standards... their churros were no bueno. & that did NOT make me smile.
>:[
and then i got to thinking... where the fuck are the rest of the disney characters!
hmmm?
gimme that hercules//pocahontas//anastasia//jasmine//robin hood//quasimodo!!!
ughhh!!! i'm mad at disneyland...
the most fun we had at disneyland was the walk back to our car.
fuck waiting for the tram. we ran that shit. even though we were already limping due to the nonstop walking we did throughout the day. but that was some good laughs.
:]
then when i got home... i got a text from some stranger who ignored me for "20 years" saying hi and that he was gonna come over.
& like a creeper... HE DID.
so i went outside to set him straight. but what a smooth talker he is.
got me to walk with him to the park and back.
tried to be all cool and started showing off his moves.
turned his swag on.
told me about how he stalks my myspace//blogger and how he prints my pictures and pastes my face on pictures with him. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
now i have to move out of my house and move to a different state.
JOKE!
he's a cutie.
i haven't genuinely smiled like that in a while.
:]
made my night. <3
man. i wish i wrote that.
cuuuuuuuute song. <3
landon pigg knew how to make a girl's heart melt, f'reals.
yesterday was a good day.
disneyland with jeremy and his family, reg, raymond, and rosalie.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JORDAN!
:D
BUT disneyland did not meet up to my standards... their churros were no bueno. & that did NOT make me smile.
>:[
and then i got to thinking... where the fuck are the rest of the disney characters!
hmmm?
gimme that hercules//pocahontas//anastasia//jasmine//robin hood//quasimodo!!!
ughhh!!! i'm mad at disneyland...
the most fun we had at disneyland was the walk back to our car.
fuck waiting for the tram. we ran that shit. even though we were already limping due to the nonstop walking we did throughout the day. but that was some good laughs.
:]
then when i got home... i got a text from some stranger who ignored me for "20 years" saying hi and that he was gonna come over.
& like a creeper... HE DID.
so i went outside to set him straight. but what a smooth talker he is.
got me to walk with him to the park and back.
tried to be all cool and started showing off his moves.
turned his swag on.
told me about how he stalks my myspace//blogger and how he prints my pictures and pastes my face on pictures with him. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
now i have to move out of my house and move to a different state.
JOKE!
he's a cutie.
i haven't genuinely smiled like that in a while.
:]
made my night. <3
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
you are my sunshine
my only sunshine.
you make me happy when skies are gray!
you'll never know dear, how much i love you.
please don't take my sunshine away.
:]
thank you derek for serenading me. i really needed it.
<3
but damn. now i can't stop singing the song!
LOL
i have come to realize that i am too nice.
i forgive too easily and i need to stop being so sympathetic.
my friend george told me... "...it just seems like you dated the wrong guy."
after reading that... i got to thinking...
i've been doing that A LOT lately.
i'm always attracted to the wrong guy.
i spent another sleepless night trying to figure out why i haven't had much luck in the relationship department.
and i think i've figured out what it is...
I'D RATHER BE HURT THAN HURT SOMEONE ELSE.
i let people abuse me.
i'm done with the hurtful words, the false hope, the empty promises, and the bullshit excuses.
it's time i be the selfish one for a change.
i may seem like a bitch for being so selfish, but time and past [&& also current] experiences have changed me.
i can trust no one but myself.
no more innocent, gullible rhio that i was once before.
i've grown a backbone and i'm learning to say "get the fuck out of my life."
i'm also learning that if i let someone out of my life... i need to KEEP them out of my life.
no more second chances.
i've had enough.
it's time i find the RIGHT guy.
and it's time i start getting real.
because this was the song playing at the coffee shop when we met. :]
you make me happy when skies are gray!
you'll never know dear, how much i love you.
please don't take my sunshine away.
:]
thank you derek for serenading me. i really needed it.
<3
but damn. now i can't stop singing the song!
LOL
i have come to realize that i am too nice.
i forgive too easily and i need to stop being so sympathetic.
my friend george told me... "...it just seems like you dated the wrong guy."
after reading that... i got to thinking...
i've been doing that A LOT lately.
i'm always attracted to the wrong guy.
i spent another sleepless night trying to figure out why i haven't had much luck in the relationship department.
and i think i've figured out what it is...
I'D RATHER BE HURT THAN HURT SOMEONE ELSE.
i let people abuse me.
i'm done with the hurtful words, the false hope, the empty promises, and the bullshit excuses.
it's time i be the selfish one for a change.
i may seem like a bitch for being so selfish, but time and past [&& also current] experiences have changed me.
i can trust no one but myself.
no more innocent, gullible rhio that i was once before.
i've grown a backbone and i'm learning to say "get the fuck out of my life."
i'm also learning that if i let someone out of my life... i need to KEEP them out of my life.
no more second chances.
i've had enough.
it's time i find the RIGHT guy.
and it's time i start getting real.
because this was the song playing at the coffee shop when we met. :]
Friday, July 17, 2009
one... two... WHOOT! WHOOT!
HARD SUMMER.
so damn excited!!!
UNDERWORLD//CHROMEO//CROOKERS//CRYSTAL CASTLES//A-TRAK//TIGA//THE BLOODY BEETROOTS//SEBASTIAN//BUSY P//AMANDA BLANK//STEVE AOKI//SINDEN//JACK BEATS//DJ AM//DESTRUCTO//SKEET SKEET//DAN OH//12TH PLANET!!!!
I JUST CAME.
hahahahaha!
on another note.
this week began with a semi adventure then digressed into a boring,stressful week.
monday. i don't really remember what i did monday...
tuesday. spent the day with reg, raymond, and ross. went to long beach and went to the aquarium for ross and then the queen mary. pretty entertaining.
so wednesday...
i was annoyed UP THE BUTT.
i just left.
i walked FIVE freaking miles to derek's house...
in the heat.
no water.
no phone.
gay as shit.
i almost got spiderbites.
:]
i REALLY want them.
might be my early birthday present to myself.
LOL.
^
^
number 3. but i want it on the right side.
terri got a corset piercing.
HOLY SHIT.
hers are still red and look nasty. they look FRESH. *shivers*
so here is an example. hers look EXACTLY like this.
derek got a scarification of wings on his back.
I FAINTED while he was getting it.
i'd show an example but... i get sick looking at it.
hahaha! just google scarification.
but here is a picture of what the wings look like. just tattoo form.
GAHHH DAMN!
so painful.
thursday was a blur.
today. was stressful.
glad it's over.
i am sad that i did not get to see this weeks episode of true blood.
hope tomorrow will be better.
i will end this blog with an interesting quote from an old jewish woman i ran into on wednesday while walking...
"would you like some of my matzah ball soup? it's a hearty serving of OY VEY in every bowl!"
hahahahaha! she was cooler than peaches.
:D
Monday, July 13, 2009
ah hoy butternuts!
hello there sunshines!
:D
yesterday was a GREAT day.
fullerton.
chipotle.
yogurtland.
hercules.
saw Jojo. :]
HARRY POTTER. :D
i haven't laughed that hard in a LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG time.
oh childhood memories.
sliding down rosalie's stairs.
flipping off a desk and landing on my back.
thinking that if i squeezed the juice our of a caprisun hard enough... i could make a hole in the ceiling.
rischae flipping over on the stairs.
sega genesis.
making our own pride rock and playing lion king. BAHAHAHAHA!
mini clubs with passwords like... unicorn, or rainbows, or 1...9...9...9...!
secret handshakes.
SAILOR MOON!
POKEMON!
chucky movies.
NICKELODEON. when they had good shows. [doug. rugrats. hey arnold!. rocko's modern life. etc.]
boy bands.
jesse mccartney when he was in dreamstreet. OH BALLS. hahaha!!!!
knowing EVERY disney song by heart.
reg, raymond, and rosalie would put peices of their breakfast in my milk while i wasn't looking. assholes.
den-do. hahaha!
group pictures with the easter bunny and santa clause.
me and rischae taking a shower at the same time so we would save water. OH MY GAHH! BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
reg throwing toilet water at rischae.
david throwing underwear with poop on it at reg's back.
matching rings.
fart contests.
roller blades.
bowl cuts. [denny.] lulz.
preschool... FOR TWO YEARS.
South Hills Academy.
+ many other embarrassing things i should not mention.
man. we were a weird group of kids.
it was a great trip down memory lane. yeah. i said it. cheesy. i know. LOL
my other half. this is what she does when i'm not around....
BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!11
:D
yesterday was a GREAT day.
fullerton.
chipotle.
yogurtland.
hercules.
saw Jojo. :]
HARRY POTTER. :D
i haven't laughed that hard in a LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG time.
oh childhood memories.
sliding down rosalie's stairs.
flipping off a desk and landing on my back.
thinking that if i squeezed the juice our of a caprisun hard enough... i could make a hole in the ceiling.
rischae flipping over on the stairs.
sega genesis.
making our own pride rock and playing lion king. BAHAHAHAHA!
mini clubs with passwords like... unicorn, or rainbows, or 1...9...9...9...!
secret handshakes.
SAILOR MOON!
POKEMON!
chucky movies.
NICKELODEON. when they had good shows. [doug. rugrats. hey arnold!. rocko's modern life. etc.]
boy bands.
jesse mccartney when he was in dreamstreet. OH BALLS. hahaha!!!!
knowing EVERY disney song by heart.
reg, raymond, and rosalie would put peices of their breakfast in my milk while i wasn't looking. assholes.
den-do. hahaha!
group pictures with the easter bunny and santa clause.
me and rischae taking a shower at the same time so we would save water. OH MY GAHH! BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
reg throwing toilet water at rischae.
david throwing underwear with poop on it at reg's back.
matching rings.
fart contests.
roller blades.
bowl cuts. [denny.] lulz.
preschool... FOR TWO YEARS.
South Hills Academy.
+ many other embarrassing things i should not mention.
man. we were a weird group of kids.
it was a great trip down memory lane. yeah. i said it. cheesy. i know. LOL
my other half. this is what she does when i'm not around....
BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!11
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
it JUST occurred to me.
that i have been slowly drifting away from my social scene.
it's like i'm slowly, but secretly committing social suicide.
i've become a recluse. detaching myself from a world i once called home.
the scary thing is... i kind of like it.
it's strange. i've been poorly keeping in touch with people i once held close.
i feel like i'm losing my best friend because we haven't been able to talk that much or because really... i don't have much to say.
i have yet to carry out my plans for my summer vacation and frankly... i don't give a fuck!
i have not spoken to most of my friends in AGES.
it's weird.
i'm enjoying the peace and quite that i was deprived of during the beginning of this year.
i've been spending most of my days with either family, derek and his friends, or ronnie.
my day consists of reading, movies, occasional concerts, random family outings, and sleep.
it doesn't seem like much fun, but to me... IT'S BEEN THE BEST!
it's a refreshing change from how things used to be.
but my relaxation period is gradually coming to an end.
i miss those who i've shut out quite terribly.
i am ready to rekindle friendships and re-enter my once familiar world.
hoping for the best,
i've got to get this off my chest.
i can't see us getting by until we've put this all to rest.
is it impossible for us to carry on
or do we have to just let go and then forget it all?
and maybe worst of all but never first of all,
i really doubt that any bit of it's
reversible.
it's selfish, i know, but
i've really got to hold on to
something that i just
couldn't possibly control.
i'll let you take your best shot,
but you'll probably drop it.
and all i'll say is
"i told you so."
catch me if you can.
i think i finally understand.
you don't care what they all think
as long as you know where we stand.
and you think...
"why be original?
it's much too difficult."
if even you don't care that you're not an individual.
i know it hurts and all,
but it's nothing personal.
it's like you stole it,
said you wrote it, then rehearsed it all.
it's like i'm slowly, but secretly committing social suicide.
i've become a recluse. detaching myself from a world i once called home.
the scary thing is... i kind of like it.
it's strange. i've been poorly keeping in touch with people i once held close.
i feel like i'm losing my best friend because we haven't been able to talk that much or because really... i don't have much to say.
i have yet to carry out my plans for my summer vacation and frankly... i don't give a fuck!
i have not spoken to most of my friends in AGES.
it's weird.
i'm enjoying the peace and quite that i was deprived of during the beginning of this year.
i've been spending most of my days with either family, derek and his friends, or ronnie.
my day consists of reading, movies, occasional concerts, random family outings, and sleep.
it doesn't seem like much fun, but to me... IT'S BEEN THE BEST!
it's a refreshing change from how things used to be.
but my relaxation period is gradually coming to an end.
i miss those who i've shut out quite terribly.
i am ready to rekindle friendships and re-enter my once familiar world.
hoping for the best,
i've got to get this off my chest.
i can't see us getting by until we've put this all to rest.
is it impossible for us to carry on
or do we have to just let go and then forget it all?
and maybe worst of all but never first of all,
i really doubt that any bit of it's
reversible.
it's selfish, i know, but
i've really got to hold on to
something that i just
couldn't possibly control.
i'll let you take your best shot,
but you'll probably drop it.
and all i'll say is
"i told you so."
catch me if you can.
i think i finally understand.
you don't care what they all think
as long as you know where we stand.
and you think...
"why be original?
it's much too difficult."
if even you don't care that you're not an individual.
i know it hurts and all,
but it's nothing personal.
it's like you stole it,
said you wrote it, then rehearsed it all.
Monday, July 6, 2009
to the sweat drop down my balls!
bahahahaha!!!
yesterday was some fun stuff.
:]
started the cirque du freak series. it's pretty amazing!
:D
saw the proposal. SO EFFING CUTE!
such a chick flick. but i la la la LOOOOOOOOOVED it!
ryan reynolds. so cute. <3
saw the hannah montana episode where she chooses JAKE RYAN!
bahahahahahaha!
yeah. that's right. i was excited to see that episode.
i discovered the WONDERS of yogurtland. FUCK PINKBERRY WITH A RUSTY SPOON.
"I don't know which is more embarrassing, the fact that I shat on the floor today or that I told you about it."
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yesterday was some fun stuff.
:]
started the cirque du freak series. it's pretty amazing!
:D
saw the proposal. SO EFFING CUTE!
such a chick flick. but i la la la LOOOOOOOOOVED it!
ryan reynolds. so cute. <3
saw the hannah montana episode where she chooses JAKE RYAN!
bahahahahahaha!
yeah. that's right. i was excited to see that episode.
i discovered the WONDERS of yogurtland. FUCK PINKBERRY WITH A RUSTY SPOON.
"I don't know which is more embarrassing, the fact that I shat on the floor today or that I told you about it."
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Saturday, July 4, 2009
i used to be love drunk, but now i'm hung over...
how interesting.
so today is independence day.
woop tee fahking dildo do.
LOL
go america. we are all screwed.
hahahaha!
don't get me wrong. i love america.
:]
my day will consist of eating. hanging out with my family. and gay ass fireworks at walnut high.
should be some interesting stuff.
foam? body paint? itchy grass? fully charged camera?
OH YES, PLEASE!
:D
don't you just love filipinos?
so today is independence day.
woop tee fahking dildo do.
LOL
go america. we are all screwed.
hahahaha!
don't get me wrong. i love america.
:]
my day will consist of eating. hanging out with my family. and gay ass fireworks at walnut high.
should be some interesting stuff.
foam? body paint? itchy grass? fully charged camera?
OH YES, PLEASE!
:D
don't you just love filipinos?
Friday, July 3, 2009
i fixed...
my fucking cellular!
:D
took me long enough...
hahaha!
so... it's thursday... not much has happened this week.
been spending a lot of time with derek lately.
movie marathon in his car:
zack and miri make a porno
superbad
knocked up
forgetting sarah marshall
the 40 year-old-virgin
been going to beverly hills a lot.
party yesterday.
softball game yesterday.
chinese take-out and frozen yogurt with derek.
all that good stuff.
tomorrow. beach with raymond and reg. should be fun.
computer is almost fixed. damn viruses...
i'll try to blog again tomorrow!
:D
took me long enough...
hahaha!
so... it's thursday... not much has happened this week.
been spending a lot of time with derek lately.
movie marathon in his car:
zack and miri make a porno
superbad
knocked up
forgetting sarah marshall
the 40 year-old-virgin
been going to beverly hills a lot.
party yesterday.
softball game yesterday.
chinese take-out and frozen yogurt with derek.
all that good stuff.
tomorrow. beach with raymond and reg. should be fun.
computer is almost fixed. damn viruses...
i'll try to blog again tomorrow!
Monday, June 29, 2009
it's been ages!
to people who actually read my blog...
my sincerest apologies that i have not been able to post new blogs.
my computer has 38 infections and will not let me use the internet.
boo fahking hoo.
:[
but time for an update.
:]
so far... my summer has been going rather well.
movies.
mall.
hangouts.
beverly hills.
lunch dates.
coffee dates.
broke up with ronnie.
DISNEYLAND.
parties.
mentholated cigarettes. :D
resident evil 5.
bowling.
mini golf.
concerts.
warped tour.
pretty fun times.
:]
so tomorrow is my day to relax.
get my eyebrows done.
manicure.
pedicure.
massage.
facial.
all that good stuff.
then on wednesday...
SENIOR PICTURES.
fahk. i know mine will end up looking like shit.
hahahahaha! oh well.
'til the next time i am able to access internet or 'til i get my computer fixed...
byee!
my sincerest apologies that i have not been able to post new blogs.
my computer has 38 infections and will not let me use the internet.
boo fahking hoo.
:[
but time for an update.
:]
so far... my summer has been going rather well.
movies.
mall.
hangouts.
beverly hills.
lunch dates.
coffee dates.
broke up with ronnie.
DISNEYLAND.
parties.
mentholated cigarettes. :D
resident evil 5.
bowling.
mini golf.
concerts.
warped tour.
pretty fun times.
:]
so tomorrow is my day to relax.
get my eyebrows done.
manicure.
pedicure.
massage.
facial.
all that good stuff.
then on wednesday...
SENIOR PICTURES.
fahk. i know mine will end up looking like shit.
hahahahaha! oh well.
'til the next time i am able to access internet or 'til i get my computer fixed...
byee!
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
a loaded god complex, cock it and pull it.
today was a BLAST!
went to beverly hills with justine.
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much fun.
sprinkles.
chanel.
fendi.
gucci.
roberto cavalli.
bebe.
versace.
JIMMY CHOO!!!!
PRADA!!!!!!!
omg.
we are going back and buying the ENTIRE rodeo drive.
:D
the car ride was the BEST!
singing fall out boy, all time low, metro station, escape the fate, the beatles, oldies music.. FUN STUFF!
i la la la la LOOOOOOOOOOOOVE my bplffl.
:]
sprinkles!
big tittied monstuh!!!
i'll be your number one with a bullet.
violent pornography.
we run L.A.
went to beverly hills with justine.
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much fun.
sprinkles.
chanel.
fendi.
gucci.
roberto cavalli.
bebe.
versace.
JIMMY CHOO!!!!
PRADA!!!!!!!
omg.
we are going back and buying the ENTIRE rodeo drive.
:D
the car ride was the BEST!
singing fall out boy, all time low, metro station, escape the fate, the beatles, oldies music.. FUN STUFF!
i la la la la LOOOOOOOOOOOOVE my bplffl.
:]
sprinkles!
big tittied monstuh!!!
i'll be your number one with a bullet.
violent pornography.
we run L.A.
we run L.A.
so yesterday i went to beverly hills.
some pretty fun stuff.
eff new york.
the stinking rose.
sprinkles.
sprinkles guy. :]
roberto cavalli.
ferragamo.
going back again... TODAY!
con justine.
:]
fancy attire.
tea.
cupcakes.
rain or shine.
shopping.
fine dining.
should be a blast!
:D
some pretty fun stuff.
eff new york.
the stinking rose.
sprinkles.
sprinkles guy. :]
roberto cavalli.
ferragamo.
going back again... TODAY!
con justine.
:]
fancy attire.
tea.
cupcakes.
rain or shine.
shopping.
fine dining.
should be a blast!
:D
Sunday, June 14, 2009
filter.
today was a good day.
until i came home to a cranky ass mother and a lazy fucking step father...
now... michael is giving me shit for going on vacations...
really? i mean... REALLY?
you've got to be kidding me...
my day consisted of
disneyland.
chipotle.
clever riddles.
filter magazine.
barnes & nobles.
ancient ipods.
retarded dancing.
full day adventure.
now... i'm cranky as fuck and annoyed to the highest degree.
woop tee fucking dildo do for me...
until i came home to a cranky ass mother and a lazy fucking step father...
now... michael is giving me shit for going on vacations...
really? i mean... REALLY?
you've got to be kidding me...
my day consisted of
disneyland.
chipotle.
clever riddles.
filter magazine.
barnes & nobles.
ancient ipods.
retarded dancing.
full day adventure.
now... i'm cranky as fuck and annoyed to the highest degree.
woop tee fucking dildo do for me...
Friday, June 12, 2009
we're the new face of failure.
HELLO BLOGSPOT!
haven't been on this thing in a LOOOOOOOOOOOOONG time.
hmmm... so what have i been doing?!
left for vegas on sunday.
came home tuesday.
hung out with jessica at the shoppes on wednesday.
spent too much money.
x_x
yesterday.
went out to eat with the family.
i ended up renting the curious case of benjamin button, role model, paul blart: mall cop, hot rod, and bride wars. HAHAHAHAHAHA!
everyone decided that they wanted to go to brea mall.
i was home... alone.
so i called ronnie and we had a movie marathon.
:] good times. good times.
this morning.
i ran 3 miles and almost had an asthma attack.
i gotta stop smoking.
now.
i'm sitting on my bed with a hot cup of tea and watching the happening.
stupid movie.
but i love me some mark wahlberg and zooey deschanel. <333
tonight.
late night rendezvous with derek.
ice blocking.
energy drinks.
make our own bonfire.
should be funn.
:]
throughout this whole week.
i've noticed that i've been getting addicted to quite a few things.
tea.
texting.
movie marathons.
andy samberg.
mentholated cigarettes.
coffee.
wicca.
werewolves and vampires.
shopping.
and many more things...
i need a refreshing change.
i'm going to quit some of these addictions.
hopefully i can quit.
wish me luck.
haven't been on this thing in a LOOOOOOOOOOOOONG time.
hmmm... so what have i been doing?!
left for vegas on sunday.
came home tuesday.
hung out with jessica at the shoppes on wednesday.
spent too much money.
x_x
yesterday.
went out to eat with the family.
i ended up renting the curious case of benjamin button, role model, paul blart: mall cop, hot rod, and bride wars. HAHAHAHAHAHA!
everyone decided that they wanted to go to brea mall.
i was home... alone.
so i called ronnie and we had a movie marathon.
:] good times. good times.
this morning.
i ran 3 miles and almost had an asthma attack.
i gotta stop smoking.
now.
i'm sitting on my bed with a hot cup of tea and watching the happening.
stupid movie.
but i love me some mark wahlberg and zooey deschanel. <333
tonight.
late night rendezvous with derek.
ice blocking.
energy drinks.
make our own bonfire.
should be funn.
:]
throughout this whole week.
i've noticed that i've been getting addicted to quite a few things.
tea.
texting.
movie marathons.
andy samberg.
mentholated cigarettes.
coffee.
wicca.
werewolves and vampires.
shopping.
and many more things...
i need a refreshing change.
i'm going to quit some of these addictions.
hopefully i can quit.
wish me luck.
Saturday, June 6, 2009
and every word, so hollow, has become much too hard to follow.
SCHOOL IS FINALLY OVER BETCHES!
summer is here!!!
:D
so my last day of school was wednesday... and guess what?!
i fucking HATE the rain...
total boner braker on my last day of school...
disneyland in the rain sounded pretty cool... until the thunder and lightning came along...
woop tee dildo fucking do for me.
LOL
so instead... i had a saw movie marathon with my sister. hahaha! our reactions were priceless.
LOL
to forget about all that traumatizing scenes we decided to watch yes man after.
I LA LA LA LA LA LA LA LA LA LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE ZOOEY DESCHANEL.
she's so freaking cute!
yesterday. i drove to jess' house to pick up my books for next year. oh man. we spent hours talking and laughing. our main topic... MR. AGNEW. he's our hot shit math teacher with a "do me" toupee. bahahahahahahaha!!! shit. i'm going to miss her.
hmmm.... so today... i woke up at 6 so i could get ready and study for my fucking SAT subject test for u.s. history... left my sister's house at 7. got there at like 7:20. the test took an hour long... the SATs can suck my dick... and chino hills high school can suck my dick as well for hosting the SAT testing at their school.
LOL!
later. i went to cal state l.a. to watch my old friend kevin perform. he got the lead role.
:]
he's AMAZING!
my butt was numb for a good 2 hours. but it was worth it.
LOL
i just got home from hanging out with derek and his friends.
we RAPED the shoppes and chino spectrum.
thong tag at victoria's secret.
seductive hand moisturizing at bath & body works.
fashion show at h&m and forever 21.
story time at barnes & nobles.
green tea fro yo tub with strawberries, granola, and blueberries at pinkberry.
one slice of every pizza at cpk.
arts & crafts time at michael's.
getting discount at border's with my barnes & noble's membership card. hahahahaha!
pita chips from henry's.
movie marathon at the shoppes parking lot in derek's car.
random dancing down the sidewalk.
going up to strangers and sandwiching them.
st. paul mass. i know... random. WOW!
ROCKSTARS.
mentholated halls and cigarettes.
a good way to end my day.
tomorrow... VEGAS!
:D
summer is here!!!
:D
so my last day of school was wednesday... and guess what?!
i fucking HATE the rain...
total boner braker on my last day of school...
disneyland in the rain sounded pretty cool... until the thunder and lightning came along...
woop tee dildo fucking do for me.
LOL
so instead... i had a saw movie marathon with my sister. hahaha! our reactions were priceless.
LOL
to forget about all that traumatizing scenes we decided to watch yes man after.
I LA LA LA LA LA LA LA LA LA LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE ZOOEY DESCHANEL.
she's so freaking cute!
yesterday. i drove to jess' house to pick up my books for next year. oh man. we spent hours talking and laughing. our main topic... MR. AGNEW. he's our hot shit math teacher with a "do me" toupee. bahahahahahahaha!!! shit. i'm going to miss her.
hmmm.... so today... i woke up at 6 so i could get ready and study for my fucking SAT subject test for u.s. history... left my sister's house at 7. got there at like 7:20. the test took an hour long... the SATs can suck my dick... and chino hills high school can suck my dick as well for hosting the SAT testing at their school.
LOL!
later. i went to cal state l.a. to watch my old friend kevin perform. he got the lead role.
:]
he's AMAZING!
my butt was numb for a good 2 hours. but it was worth it.
LOL
i just got home from hanging out with derek and his friends.
we RAPED the shoppes and chino spectrum.
thong tag at victoria's secret.
seductive hand moisturizing at bath & body works.
fashion show at h&m and forever 21.
story time at barnes & nobles.
green tea fro yo tub with strawberries, granola, and blueberries at pinkberry.
one slice of every pizza at cpk.
arts & crafts time at michael's.
getting discount at border's with my barnes & noble's membership card. hahahahaha!
pita chips from henry's.
movie marathon at the shoppes parking lot in derek's car.
random dancing down the sidewalk.
going up to strangers and sandwiching them.
st. paul mass. i know... random. WOW!
ROCKSTARS.
mentholated halls and cigarettes.
a good way to end my day.
tomorrow... VEGAS!
:D
Monday, June 1, 2009
oh my moses!
i haven't blogged since friday!!!
:[
well to recap...
saturday...
i went over to justine's house to ATTEMPT to finish our study guides... that didn't happen.
we ended up walking to senor baja and rite aide, getting hit on by old mexican guys, played lesbian and held hands because some guys in a car looked like they wanted to take us home, and ate our own spicy doritos!
since our attempt at studying at her house was an epic failure... she decided to sleep over at my house! we got some math done... and that was pretty much it. we watched snl, ate, babysat max [my wittle puppy.], and just kept laughing the entire night!
got a drunk call from michael... that was HILARIOUS!
while on the phone... justine decided she wanted to color an asian girl... only SHE would do that... and she tried to hold my hand... what a homo.
:P
well. sunday was a blur. i think i slept most of the day. OH! wait. i went to costco. and i went to petsmart... i think i bought the entire store... i bought a shit load of chew toys, training pads, shampoo, a bed, and all this other junk... just for my little shit dog who keeps me up all night with his whining...
x_x
i freaking spoil that little asshole.
LOL!
i figured out what i want to do in life...
i want to DANCE!
:[
well to recap...
saturday...
i went over to justine's house to ATTEMPT to finish our study guides... that didn't happen.
we ended up walking to senor baja and rite aide, getting hit on by old mexican guys, played lesbian and held hands because some guys in a car looked like they wanted to take us home, and ate our own spicy doritos!
since our attempt at studying at her house was an epic failure... she decided to sleep over at my house! we got some math done... and that was pretty much it. we watched snl, ate, babysat max [my wittle puppy.], and just kept laughing the entire night!
got a drunk call from michael... that was HILARIOUS!
while on the phone... justine decided she wanted to color an asian girl... only SHE would do that... and she tried to hold my hand... what a homo.
:P
well. sunday was a blur. i think i slept most of the day. OH! wait. i went to costco. and i went to petsmart... i think i bought the entire store... i bought a shit load of chew toys, training pads, shampoo, a bed, and all this other junk... just for my little shit dog who keeps me up all night with his whining...
x_x
i freaking spoil that little asshole.
LOL!
i figured out what i want to do in life...
i want to DANCE!
Friday, May 29, 2009
fuck finals with a rusty spoon!
i haven't blogged in TWO whole days!
you want to know why?
FUCKING FINALS AND MALERBEEZY WITH HER GAY ASS ESSAYS.
this week was hell week.
x_x
oh well.
I'M FUCKING GLAD THAT IT IS OVER.
hmmm... so what happened these passed two days?
i found out my new puppy is very protective over me... he hates my boyfriend... he wants to be the only boy in my life... ahahaha!
i want to shit on all of the sophomores' graves...
lakers won...
:D
tonight again!
poon jabbed kathleen today.
LOL!!!!
:P
no work today... thank you sweet baby jesus!
guess what i'm doing this weekend?!
i am becoming a hermit and i am going to stay indoors... away from the world until my tan fades...
WHY?!
because...
I HAVE TO STUDY FOR FUCKING FINALS!
fml.
hahaha!
oh well.
tomorrow... study sesh at j-bizzle's house!
:]
i highly doubt that we'll get any studying done. bahahaha!
well... i'll write more tomorrow.
uneventful week. only homework and essays... oh! and math.
FUCK SCHAAL IN THE ASS WITH A STD INFESTED NICKLE!
math can suck my dick. fa sho.
you want to know why?
FUCKING FINALS AND MALERBEEZY WITH HER GAY ASS ESSAYS.
this week was hell week.
x_x
oh well.
I'M FUCKING GLAD THAT IT IS OVER.
hmmm... so what happened these passed two days?
i found out my new puppy is very protective over me... he hates my boyfriend... he wants to be the only boy in my life... ahahaha!
i want to shit on all of the sophomores' graves...
lakers won...
:D
tonight again!
poon jabbed kathleen today.
LOL!!!!
:P
no work today... thank you sweet baby jesus!
guess what i'm doing this weekend?!
i am becoming a hermit and i am going to stay indoors... away from the world until my tan fades...
WHY?!
because...
I HAVE TO STUDY FOR FUCKING FINALS!
fml.
hahaha!
oh well.
tomorrow... study sesh at j-bizzle's house!
:]
i highly doubt that we'll get any studying done. bahahaha!
well... i'll write more tomorrow.
uneventful week. only homework and essays... oh! and math.
FUCK SCHAAL IN THE ASS WITH A STD INFESTED NICKLE!
math can suck my dick. fa sho.
Monday, May 25, 2009
girlfriend voice.
today.
i went to a pic-nic with the family...
woop tee dildo do for me.
THEN.
i went to dana point to meet ronnie's parents...
THAT was some interesting stuff.
starbucks.
sushi lunch at mahe.
beach.
old people.
that cool guy singing show tunes in front of denny's.
teen magazines.
some weird guy asking me for my number and e-mail address right in front of ronnie and his parents.
blue is for nightmares series.
max peeing on ronnie's pillow.
&&&
ronnie's girlfriend voice.
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW.
hahahaha!
what a good way to end the long weekend.
well, the day is not over.
late night shinanigans with derek and joe.
fa sho!
i went to a pic-nic with the family...
woop tee dildo do for me.
THEN.
i went to dana point to meet ronnie's parents...
THAT was some interesting stuff.
starbucks.
sushi lunch at mahe.
beach.
old people.
that cool guy singing show tunes in front of denny's.
teen magazines.
some weird guy asking me for my number and e-mail address right in front of ronnie and his parents.
blue is for nightmares series.
max peeing on ronnie's pillow.
&&&
ronnie's girlfriend voice.
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW.
hahahaha!
what a good way to end the long weekend.
well, the day is not over.
late night shinanigans with derek and joe.
fa sho!
Sunday, May 24, 2009
good sunday.
GOTS ME A NEW PUPPY!
his name is max.
:]
little yorksie terrier.
:D
he's a cuddler.
teehee!
saw night at the museum today...
GOOOOOOOD movie.
i can't take that pharoh guy seriously...
it's the damn lisp!
it's soooo amusing!
bahahahahahaha!!!!
last night... rischae raped me...
yet again...
she jumped on top of me and put her bony vagina on my thigh and started clenching her labias...
FUCK MY LIFE.
bahahahahahaha!!!
"REUNITED AND IT FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELS SO GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!!!!"
his name is max.
:]
little yorksie terrier.
:D
he's a cuddler.
teehee!
saw night at the museum today...
GOOOOOOOD movie.
i can't take that pharoh guy seriously...
it's the damn lisp!
it's soooo amusing!
bahahahahahaha!!!!
last night... rischae raped me...
yet again...
she jumped on top of me and put her bony vagina on my thigh and started clenching her labias...
FUCK MY LIFE.
bahahahahahaha!!!
"REUNITED AND IT FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELS SO GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!!!!"
Saturday, May 23, 2009
lame saturday.
did absolutely NOTHING today.
the entire philippines is at my house.
STAR WARS MARATHON!
:D
but.... RISCHAE's here!!!!
had a good long talk with her about college, boys, life, religion, SATs, and all that fun jazz.
i really needed that talk.
god. i missed my number one. hahaha!
good way to reunite after a LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG time of not seeing each other.
:]
today went from lame to good.
i'm satisfied.
the entire philippines is at my house.
STAR WARS MARATHON!
:D
but.... RISCHAE's here!!!!
had a good long talk with her about college, boys, life, religion, SATs, and all that fun jazz.
i really needed that talk.
god. i missed my number one. hahaha!
good way to reunite after a LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG time of not seeing each other.
:]
today went from lame to good.
i'm satisfied.
Friday, May 22, 2009
Look at that guy! He keeps staring at us!
TODAY.
i almost killed justine.
i made her choke on a doughnut.
bahahahaha!
today was a pretty fun day.
death glares.
windy car rides.
mashed potatoes.
steamed vegetables.
ranch dressing.
raw broccoli.
doughnut.
raspberry iced tea.
ICU.
becky.
stuffing charts.
margaret. babies.
no children allowed.
mean telephone calls.
half day at school.
work from 1-3.
found a lost dog and brought it to it's owner.
went on a coffee date with derek.
maria came over and sold me her books.
ronnie will be here in about 20 minutes.
TONIGHT.
dinner with like 35 different people.
melrose.
THEN
deadmau5 at hollywood palladium.
:D
HELL TO THE YES!
so freaking excited!
OH!!!!!!!
&&&
today is my best friend's birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JOJO!
i almost killed justine.
i made her choke on a doughnut.
bahahahaha!
today was a pretty fun day.
death glares.
windy car rides.
mashed potatoes.
steamed vegetables.
ranch dressing.
raw broccoli.
doughnut.
raspberry iced tea.
ICU.
becky.
stuffing charts.
margaret. babies.
no children allowed.
mean telephone calls.
half day at school.
work from 1-3.
found a lost dog and brought it to it's owner.
went on a coffee date with derek.
maria came over and sold me her books.
ronnie will be here in about 20 minutes.
TONIGHT.
dinner with like 35 different people.
melrose.
THEN
deadmau5 at hollywood palladium.
:D
HELL TO THE YES!
so freaking excited!
OH!!!!!!!
&&&
today is my best friend's birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JOJO!
Thursday, May 21, 2009
melelele!
i skipped a day.
fahk. there goes my blogging streak.
oh well.
last night was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much fun.
Nine Inch Nails. Ronnie Fagardi. Pounding techno music. Colby Caillat.
My going 90 on the freeway while wasted. THAT is a story that i am going to tell my future children about when they ask for a car. hahahahahaha!
poor ronnie. had to carry me from my car to my house.
overall...
good night.
:D
today was a BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORING day.
except for justine and kathleen.
they rock my rizzle fa sho.
;]
after school laughter. horse anal raping. sharpie graffiti on mine and kathleen's legs. freak pictures.
hahaha!
OH! and i got my yearbook!
:D
found a picture of me and my red spectacles... talk about HOT SHIT!
Today. i found out that i am really a tumor on justine's hip... apparently i vag block her when she goes on dates. hahahahahahaha!!!
this is just because i remembered about this video just now. hahaha!
fahk. there goes my blogging streak.
oh well.
last night was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much fun.
Nine Inch Nails. Ronnie Fagardi. Pounding techno music. Colby Caillat.
My going 90 on the freeway while wasted. THAT is a story that i am going to tell my future children about when they ask for a car. hahahahahaha!
poor ronnie. had to carry me from my car to my house.
overall...
good night.
:D
today was a BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORING day.
except for justine and kathleen.
they rock my rizzle fa sho.
;]
after school laughter. horse anal raping. sharpie graffiti on mine and kathleen's legs. freak pictures.
hahaha!
OH! and i got my yearbook!
:D
found a picture of me and my red spectacles... talk about HOT SHIT!
Today. i found out that i am really a tumor on justine's hip... apparently i vag block her when she goes on dates. hahahahahahaha!!!
this is just because i remembered about this video just now. hahaha!
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
rose and candle.
Today was a sad day.
Today i had to say goodbye to my "big sister".
Rose and candle ceremony is the MOST depressing, yet exciting, thing to experience at st. lucy's.
Jessica Arcangel. My "big sister". You've made st. lucy's an experience i will never forget.
Damn Webster University for taking you away from me.
But i'm also excited for you. College life, it will be fun!
As soon as i sat down at the ceremony i couldn't help but cry my eyes out.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!
All of our memories just kept going through my head.
Meeting you sophomore year in "SHA BOO BOO"'s class.
The San Francisco move scare, and that giant ass card you and alyssa made me.
All the FOB accents, inside jokes, perverted conversations, and homosexual raping gestures, DJ Pizza Lunch, all your ghetto fab dance moves... I WILL MISS THEM ALL!
Baby doll, those flowers you gave me are BEAUTIFUL.
Too bad we didn't get to spend as much time together this year.
How will i possible survive st. lucy's without you?
Since we are both FOBs... i thought it would be appropriate to put up a video... ABOUT A BOAT!
:D
Today i had to say goodbye to my "big sister".
Rose and candle ceremony is the MOST depressing, yet exciting, thing to experience at st. lucy's.
Jessica Arcangel. My "big sister". You've made st. lucy's an experience i will never forget.
Damn Webster University for taking you away from me.
But i'm also excited for you. College life, it will be fun!
As soon as i sat down at the ceremony i couldn't help but cry my eyes out.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!
All of our memories just kept going through my head.
Meeting you sophomore year in "SHA BOO BOO"'s class.
The San Francisco move scare, and that giant ass card you and alyssa made me.
All the FOB accents, inside jokes, perverted conversations, and homosexual raping gestures, DJ Pizza Lunch, all your ghetto fab dance moves... I WILL MISS THEM ALL!
Baby doll, those flowers you gave me are BEAUTIFUL.
Too bad we didn't get to spend as much time together this year.
How will i possible survive st. lucy's without you?
Since we are both FOBs... i thought it would be appropriate to put up a video... ABOUT A BOAT!
:D
Monday, May 18, 2009
My heart is on my sleeve, wear it like a bruise or black eye. My badge, my weakness.
I'm just going to let everything out. I'm tired of keeping it all in. I don't expect anything to come out of this. I don't want to go on with life regretting that i never told you how i felt... so hear i go... i'm laying it all out... take it or leave it...
To Tyler Harrison,
I wrote this recently because... honestly... i miss you. But that doesn't mean i want you back. It's just that... i miss the old times... and nostalgia likes to kick me in the ass... This is my way of closure. To vent my feelings.
so here. a song for you.
I never thought i could tell
I'd feel this change in myself
Or feel for anyone else.
You always knew how i felt.
And every second i wait
I'd feel i wasted away
A single hour of day
You could be near me.
I think that it is time you
Welcome this heart of mine and
You will see what you've meant to me
And this meaning i've attached to time.
I've grown accustomed to hear
It isn't i you've held dear.
I keep my heart on my sleeve
In every hope you would see.
And there is nothing i want
Except for me in your thoughts,
The ones you keep to yourself
And hide from everyone else.
I'd ask of myself,
"Could it be anyone else?"
Because it's harder to tell,
Here without you.
I think that it is time you
Welcome this heart of mine and
You will see what you've meant to me
And this meaning i've attached to time.
You're the meaning i've attached to time.
To Ronnie Fagardi,
You never cease to amaze me. My darling, you are the best thing that has happen to me in a LOOOOONG time. This is my way of thanking you and telling you how much i appreciate you. I love you, Ronnie.
:]
And all this distance can't
Match my persistance, no.
And if it's in my hands
There's no way we're through.
I've never tried so hard,
or wanted it so bad.
It's why i'm dying to get to you.
Remember nights we spent
Barely an inch between us?
We could not care less
About who could have seen us.
The only thing that beats
Sleeping by your side
Is waking up to watch you
Open up your eyes.
Right now, i can't quite think about
One place i'd like to be without you
by my side.
Right now, i hope you'd rather be
Nowhere except sitting with me
Up all night.
There's something in the weight
Of all these words around us
That makes us not care less
If the world went on without us.
Nothing up their sleeves
Could ever break my hold.
We're living out the greatest
Story ever told.
And all this distance can't
But slow us down, my love.
And if you fall, i swear,
I'd pick you right back up.
I've never poured so much
Into a a song of truth.
It's cuz i'm dying to get to you.
To Joseph Villareal,
My best friend. You have always been there for me ever since the beginning of high school. Sure there were periods where we wouldn't talk for MONTHS. But when we started talking again, it was like there was no gap. :] You are one of the few males figures that i trust completely. You know me better than i know myself. I can't thank you enough for all the advice you've given me, and all the time you've spent comforting me and being my foundation. If it wasn't for you, i really don't know where i would be right now. I love you, my best friend.
I wrote this in a hurry.
So, i'm sorry if it's not perfect,
But it's the best way i have to show.
Cuz i sit on my roof and
I count up all the stars.
From where i am to
Exactly where you are.
Cuz every night finds
Me looking at the sky.
Always thinking about
This boy that makes me smile.
And every night
You're why
I try so hard
To get this right.
So you might see
Just how much
You really mean
To me.
And i sit on my roof
And count up all the stars.
From where i was
To exactly where we both are .
Cuz every night finds
Me looking at the sky.
Always thinking about
This boy that makes me smile.
To Tyler Harrison,
I wrote this recently because... honestly... i miss you. But that doesn't mean i want you back. It's just that... i miss the old times... and nostalgia likes to kick me in the ass... This is my way of closure. To vent my feelings.
so here. a song for you.
I never thought i could tell
I'd feel this change in myself
Or feel for anyone else.
You always knew how i felt.
And every second i wait
I'd feel i wasted away
A single hour of day
You could be near me.
I think that it is time you
Welcome this heart of mine and
You will see what you've meant to me
And this meaning i've attached to time.
I've grown accustomed to hear
It isn't i you've held dear.
I keep my heart on my sleeve
In every hope you would see.
And there is nothing i want
Except for me in your thoughts,
The ones you keep to yourself
And hide from everyone else.
I'd ask of myself,
"Could it be anyone else?"
Because it's harder to tell,
Here without you.
I think that it is time you
Welcome this heart of mine and
You will see what you've meant to me
And this meaning i've attached to time.
You're the meaning i've attached to time.
To Ronnie Fagardi,
You never cease to amaze me. My darling, you are the best thing that has happen to me in a LOOOOONG time. This is my way of thanking you and telling you how much i appreciate you. I love you, Ronnie.
:]
And all this distance can't
Match my persistance, no.
And if it's in my hands
There's no way we're through.
I've never tried so hard,
or wanted it so bad.
It's why i'm dying to get to you.
Remember nights we spent
Barely an inch between us?
We could not care less
About who could have seen us.
The only thing that beats
Sleeping by your side
Is waking up to watch you
Open up your eyes.
Right now, i can't quite think about
One place i'd like to be without you
by my side.
Right now, i hope you'd rather be
Nowhere except sitting with me
Up all night.
There's something in the weight
Of all these words around us
That makes us not care less
If the world went on without us.
Nothing up their sleeves
Could ever break my hold.
We're living out the greatest
Story ever told.
And all this distance can't
But slow us down, my love.
And if you fall, i swear,
I'd pick you right back up.
I've never poured so much
Into a a song of truth.
It's cuz i'm dying to get to you.
To Joseph Villareal,
My best friend. You have always been there for me ever since the beginning of high school. Sure there were periods where we wouldn't talk for MONTHS. But when we started talking again, it was like there was no gap. :] You are one of the few males figures that i trust completely. You know me better than i know myself. I can't thank you enough for all the advice you've given me, and all the time you've spent comforting me and being my foundation. If it wasn't for you, i really don't know where i would be right now. I love you, my best friend.
I wrote this in a hurry.
So, i'm sorry if it's not perfect,
But it's the best way i have to show.
Cuz i sit on my roof and
I count up all the stars.
From where i am to
Exactly where you are.
Cuz every night finds
Me looking at the sky.
Always thinking about
This boy that makes me smile.
And every night
You're why
I try so hard
To get this right.
So you might see
Just how much
You really mean
To me.
And i sit on my roof
And count up all the stars.
From where i was
To exactly where we both are .
Cuz every night finds
Me looking at the sky.
Always thinking about
This boy that makes me smile.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
yeah. that's right. i'm pretty much the apple pie in these towns.
LAZY SUNDAY.
nothing happened today.
no funny story.
no embarrassing moment.
no interesting questions.
didn't hear any cheesy pick-up lines.
NADA.
the only exciting thing that happened to me today was that i found my vhs of Hercules.
WOW.
and watched it.
WOW. WOW.
i promise. tomorrows will be better.
on a lighter note.
nothing happened today.
no funny story.
no embarrassing moment.
no interesting questions.
didn't hear any cheesy pick-up lines.
NADA.
the only exciting thing that happened to me today was that i found my vhs of Hercules.
WOW.
and watched it.
WOW. WOW.
i promise. tomorrows will be better.
on a lighter note.
Saturday, May 16, 2009
awkward turtle.
i HATE awkward moments.
hahahahaha. oh my gahhhh.
especially when someone points out that it's an awkward moment.
yesterday, during break katie referred to the "awkward turtle" by putting one hand over the other and moving her thumbs...
i didn't know that meant awkward moment so i was confused to the highest degree.
hahahahaha!
the point of me bringing up the awkward turtle hand gesture was because today.
i was at stater brothers with my friend reese.
buying groceries and whatnot. we had to go shopping for her mom's groceries cuz her mom broke her ankle.
so we got all of the stuff and the last thing on the list that she needed were tampons.
so we go to the aisle with all the feminine products and i ask reese, "which kind does your mom use?"
she pick up the biggest size they had.
i fell to the floor and started laughing like a retard.
so we proceeded to the check out counter and fell in line.
of course... we picked the one with the shortest line... but because god hates me... he placed the CUTEST cashier there...
so he rings all of our other items and the last thing he rings up is the box of tampons...
he looks at it and then looks at me...
and then i look at reese and she tells him, "don't worry. it's not hers. she doesn't have a wide set vagina. she's filipina. the total oppostie."
he just stares at me and starts laughing...
my face turns red and i turn to her
and she's doing the awkward turtle sign with her hands!
...i'm gonna kill her.
TALK ABOUT YOUR AWKWARD MOMENT!
hahahahaha. oh my gahhhh.
especially when someone points out that it's an awkward moment.
yesterday, during break katie referred to the "awkward turtle" by putting one hand over the other and moving her thumbs...
i didn't know that meant awkward moment so i was confused to the highest degree.
hahahahaha!
the point of me bringing up the awkward turtle hand gesture was because today.
i was at stater brothers with my friend reese.
buying groceries and whatnot. we had to go shopping for her mom's groceries cuz her mom broke her ankle.
so we got all of the stuff and the last thing on the list that she needed were tampons.
so we go to the aisle with all the feminine products and i ask reese, "which kind does your mom use?"
she pick up the biggest size they had.
i fell to the floor and started laughing like a retard.
so we proceeded to the check out counter and fell in line.
of course... we picked the one with the shortest line... but because god hates me... he placed the CUTEST cashier there...
so he rings all of our other items and the last thing he rings up is the box of tampons...
he looks at it and then looks at me...
and then i look at reese and she tells him, "don't worry. it's not hers. she doesn't have a wide set vagina. she's filipina. the total oppostie."
he just stares at me and starts laughing...
my face turns red and i turn to her
and she's doing the awkward turtle sign with her hands!
...i'm gonna kill her.
TALK ABOUT YOUR AWKWARD MOMENT!
Friday, May 15, 2009
my safe word will be hhhhwhiskey!
Andy Samberg. So fahking cute.
Rhio:"I want to have his little dark jew-fro babies."
Kathleen:"HAHAHAHA! omg. You should curl the sides of their hair and make them where that hat!!!"
hahahahaha! i'll add some matzo to that son of a bitch.
;]
Today was THE BEST day that i've had in a looooooong time.
From B block 'til work. I couldn't stop laughing.
:]
Kathleen. I love you like a lonely fat kid loves porn.
HOLY SHIET!
Watching andy samberg videos during class while singing dick in a box/motherlover/jizz in my pants/i'm on a boat/lazy sunday.
Girl you make my day like no other!
<333
Rhio: "Kathleen. Ronnie's so hot... i want to lick his abs..."
Kathleen: "WHAT?! YOU WANT TO LICK HIS ASS?!"
Bahahaha! bitch. you crazy!
"You're lucky i like kissing your eyebrows."
"Your pubicles got me all hot and bothered."
"I want to punch your jeans."
"Your arm hairs turn me on."
"You're nipple hairs are sexy."
"Be thankful i like kankles."
WTF?! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
Today was a good day.
:]
During work Justine and I laughed for a good hour straight.
Talking about lame celebrity jokes, harassing the nurses and visitors, doughnuts and iced tea, making weird faces, FOB accents, AND butt "pincing". OH MAN, OH MAN. She makes my imaginary wang go WEEEEEEEEEEE! fa sho.
Speaking of lame celebrity jokes... I told a Justine the one about Lil' Wayne's favourite breakfast food... (btw. the answer is OME-LET OME-LET OME-OMELET. hahahaha!) I also told her what Beethoven's favourite fruit was... (BA-NA-NA-NAHHH! bahahahahahaha!) Let's not forget Bruce Lee's favourite drink... (WAH-TAH!)
A couple more lame jokes for your entertainment... :]
What is Snoop Dog's favorite weather?
-Drizzle.
What did Haley Joel Osment find on the top of Mt. Everest?
-Icy dead people (i see dead people)
Why did McCauley Culkin get married?
-He was tired of being home alone.
What dessert doesn’t P.Diddy like any more?
-J-Lo! (Jello)
How does Michael Jackson pick his nose?
-From a catalog.
It was once believed that Chuck Norris actually lost a fight to a pirate, but that is a lie, created by Chuck Norris himself to lure more pirates to him. Pirates never were very smart.
These are BEYOND lame... hahahaha.
BUT their stupidity made my day.
So if you don't like it...
YOU CAN SUCK MY DICK, BUT KEEP IT REAL. I DON'T NEED YOUR SPIT ALL IN MY PEE-HOLE.
hahahahahahahahaha!!!
Rhio:"I want to have his little dark jew-fro babies."
Kathleen:"HAHAHAHA! omg. You should curl the sides of their hair and make them where that hat!!!"
hahahahaha! i'll add some matzo to that son of a bitch.
;]
Today was THE BEST day that i've had in a looooooong time.
From B block 'til work. I couldn't stop laughing.
:]
Kathleen. I love you like a lonely fat kid loves porn.
HOLY SHIET!
Watching andy samberg videos during class while singing dick in a box/motherlover/jizz in my pants/i'm on a boat/lazy sunday.
Girl you make my day like no other!
<333
Rhio: "Kathleen. Ronnie's so hot... i want to lick his abs..."
Kathleen: "WHAT?! YOU WANT TO LICK HIS ASS?!"
Bahahaha! bitch. you crazy!
"You're lucky i like kissing your eyebrows."
"Your pubicles got me all hot and bothered."
"I want to punch your jeans."
"Your arm hairs turn me on."
"You're nipple hairs are sexy."
"Be thankful i like kankles."
WTF?! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
Today was a good day.
:]
During work Justine and I laughed for a good hour straight.
Talking about lame celebrity jokes, harassing the nurses and visitors, doughnuts and iced tea, making weird faces, FOB accents, AND butt "pincing". OH MAN, OH MAN. She makes my imaginary wang go WEEEEEEEEEEE! fa sho.
Speaking of lame celebrity jokes... I told a Justine the one about Lil' Wayne's favourite breakfast food... (btw. the answer is OME-LET OME-LET OME-OMELET. hahahaha!) I also told her what Beethoven's favourite fruit was... (BA-NA-NA-NAHHH! bahahahahahaha!) Let's not forget Bruce Lee's favourite drink... (WAH-TAH!)
A couple more lame jokes for your entertainment... :]
What is Snoop Dog's favorite weather?
-Drizzle.
What did Haley Joel Osment find on the top of Mt. Everest?
-Icy dead people (i see dead people)
Why did McCauley Culkin get married?
-He was tired of being home alone.
What dessert doesn’t P.Diddy like any more?
-J-Lo! (Jello)
How does Michael Jackson pick his nose?
-From a catalog.
It was once believed that Chuck Norris actually lost a fight to a pirate, but that is a lie, created by Chuck Norris himself to lure more pirates to him. Pirates never were very smart.
These are BEYOND lame... hahahaha.
BUT their stupidity made my day.
So if you don't like it...
YOU CAN SUCK MY DICK, BUT KEEP IT REAL. I DON'T NEED YOUR SPIT ALL IN MY PEE-HOLE.
hahahahahahahahaha!!!
Thursday, May 14, 2009
suck my dick with a condom on, bitch!
my dick with a what? OH!
hahaha!
love that song.
:D
Today Ronnie and I began reminiscing on the time we went to the shoppes.
We sat outside near the water fountain next to this one guy. A really pretty girl passed by and he tells her, "Girl... yous chunk-ay!" She looked at him and then punched him in the face! Flipped him off and walked away. Fucking epic. Couldn't stop laughing. Apparently he was complimenting her and was telling her that she was hot.
BAHAHAHAHA!!!
dumb ass.
The point of me bringing that whole story up was because today, while at Starbucks, some guy tried to get my attention using a really cheesy pick-up line on me...
"Hi, the voices in my head told me to come over and talk to you."
OMG. i couldn't help but laugh.
On the drive home i started to think about all the lame pick-up lines i've heard in my life...
Hey, don't I know you? Yeah, you're the girl with the beautiful smile.
Baby, I'm no Fred Flintstone, but I can make your Bedrock!
Did you clean your pants with Windex? I can practically see myself in them.
Pardon me miss, I seem to have lost my phone number, could I borrow yours?
Hey baby you're so fine you make me stutter, wha-wha-what's your name?
My name isn't Elmo, but you can tickle me any time you want.
Hi, my name is Doug. That's "god" spelled backwards with a little bit of you wrapped up in it.
I have a .357 magnum pointed at your kidney. Wanna go get some coffee?
Excuse me, but do you have tickets? (Tickets for what?) *Points to arm and flex* Tickets to the gun show!
Do you have a band-Aid? Cuz I just scraped my knee falling for you.
Do you have a map? Cuz Honey, I just keep gettin lost in your eyes.
Girl, you gotta be tired cuz you been runnin' through my mind all day.
Help, something's wrong with my eyes - I just can't take them off you.
Are you O.K.? Because heaven's a long fall from here.
You must be one hell of a thief cuz you stole my heart from across the room.
Baby, if you were words on a page, you'd be what they call FINE PRINT!
Did the sun come out or did you just smile at me?
Wow. I've had some pretty lame encounters in my life... boys are so funny.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! oh man. today was a better day.
:]
It's not gossip if it's the truth.
I'm sick of always writing songs for you to slit your wrists to.
So which is it: the boy who writes the songs or the boy who's in them?
Who's the girl? Is this truth or is he writing fiction?
Hand over my heart, gun to my head.
I swear to God I'm through with this.
I am the worst liar, I know.
hahaha!
love that song.
:D
Today Ronnie and I began reminiscing on the time we went to the shoppes.
We sat outside near the water fountain next to this one guy. A really pretty girl passed by and he tells her, "Girl... yous chunk-ay!" She looked at him and then punched him in the face! Flipped him off and walked away. Fucking epic. Couldn't stop laughing. Apparently he was complimenting her and was telling her that she was hot.
BAHAHAHAHA!!!
dumb ass.
The point of me bringing that whole story up was because today, while at Starbucks, some guy tried to get my attention using a really cheesy pick-up line on me...
"Hi, the voices in my head told me to come over and talk to you."
OMG. i couldn't help but laugh.
On the drive home i started to think about all the lame pick-up lines i've heard in my life...
Hey, don't I know you? Yeah, you're the girl with the beautiful smile.
Baby, I'm no Fred Flintstone, but I can make your Bedrock!
Did you clean your pants with Windex? I can practically see myself in them.
Pardon me miss, I seem to have lost my phone number, could I borrow yours?
Hey baby you're so fine you make me stutter, wha-wha-what's your name?
My name isn't Elmo, but you can tickle me any time you want.
Hi, my name is Doug. That's "god" spelled backwards with a little bit of you wrapped up in it.
I have a .357 magnum pointed at your kidney. Wanna go get some coffee?
Excuse me, but do you have tickets? (Tickets for what?) *Points to arm and flex* Tickets to the gun show!
Do you have a band-Aid? Cuz I just scraped my knee falling for you.
Do you have a map? Cuz Honey, I just keep gettin lost in your eyes.
Girl, you gotta be tired cuz you been runnin' through my mind all day.
Help, something's wrong with my eyes - I just can't take them off you.
Are you O.K.? Because heaven's a long fall from here.
You must be one hell of a thief cuz you stole my heart from across the room.
Baby, if you were words on a page, you'd be what they call FINE PRINT!
Did the sun come out or did you just smile at me?
Wow. I've had some pretty lame encounters in my life... boys are so funny.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! oh man. today was a better day.
:]
It's not gossip if it's the truth.
I'm sick of always writing songs for you to slit your wrists to.
So which is it: the boy who writes the songs or the boy who's in them?
Who's the girl? Is this truth or is he writing fiction?
Hand over my heart, gun to my head.
I swear to God I'm through with this.
I am the worst liar, I know.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
oh balls...
this week is going by so slowly...
shoot me.
today was BY FAR the longest day this week.
-_-
still suffering from writer's block. HOLY HELL. it's annoying.
so many thoughts that prevent me from focusing... so many questions!
If ghosts go through walls, why don’t they fall through the floor?
Why isn’t evaporated milk a gas?
When you feel down, why do people ask what’s up?
In horse racing, why do they award the rider and not the horse?
If insects are so obsessed with bright lights, why don’t they fly off to the sun?
What happens if you die in your dream?
Why do people more commonly skip breakfast than any other meal, considering that this is the time when the stomach is emptiest?
How are children supposed to take medicine if it’s meant to be kept out of their reach?
Why do people talk about ‘girlie’ things but never ‘boyie’ things?
If you sneezed on a computer, would it get a virus?
Can you dream of having a dream?
Why do we close doors and windows to reduce noise, considering that sound travels better through solids?
What did the designer of the drawing board go back to when his/her original design was a failure?
Why do ‘a fat chance’ and ‘a slim chance’ mean the same thing?
Why does your nose run and your feet smell?
Why is ‘abbreviation’ such a long word?
Why are there seeds in seeded grapes, but no bones in a boned fillet?
When people go mental, why do they get physically violent?
If you get a beer belly by drinking beer, do you get a pot belly by smoking pot?
Why does ‘dyslexia’ have to be so hard to spell?
If you try to fail, and succeed, which have you done?
Does God believe that there are atheists?
all these questions travel through my head.
retarded? maybe i am.
do i need to start taking sleeping pills? HELLO, DRUGGIE.
on the bright side, school is almost out!
:D
june 3rd!
OH YESSSS!!!
OH! i finished recording my song with nick.
:]
i'm pretty excited. never in my life would i have thought i would be writing songs for a band.
WOW. i guess i'm putting my insomnia to good use. sleepless nights = rhio's constant song writing. hahaha!
i've gotta sound so sincere.
i'll surely strike a chord
and you'll make your way here.
i wanna write words that move
and make your heart skip beats.
and if i can't do that
at least you'll tap your feet.
and if i should ask would you be happy
to learn these words and sing them at me.
take my hand and hold,
and show me what you know
i gotta be rational
and take my time with this.
i'm making god damn sure
there's not a thing i'll miss.
i work with a balanced heart
and never with steady hands.
when you're around i can't speak,
but i know my songs can.
shoot me.
today was BY FAR the longest day this week.
-_-
still suffering from writer's block. HOLY HELL. it's annoying.
so many thoughts that prevent me from focusing... so many questions!
If ghosts go through walls, why don’t they fall through the floor?
Why isn’t evaporated milk a gas?
When you feel down, why do people ask what’s up?
In horse racing, why do they award the rider and not the horse?
If insects are so obsessed with bright lights, why don’t they fly off to the sun?
What happens if you die in your dream?
Why do people more commonly skip breakfast than any other meal, considering that this is the time when the stomach is emptiest?
How are children supposed to take medicine if it’s meant to be kept out of their reach?
Why do people talk about ‘girlie’ things but never ‘boyie’ things?
If you sneezed on a computer, would it get a virus?
Can you dream of having a dream?
Why do we close doors and windows to reduce noise, considering that sound travels better through solids?
What did the designer of the drawing board go back to when his/her original design was a failure?
Why do ‘a fat chance’ and ‘a slim chance’ mean the same thing?
Why does your nose run and your feet smell?
Why is ‘abbreviation’ such a long word?
Why are there seeds in seeded grapes, but no bones in a boned fillet?
When people go mental, why do they get physically violent?
If you get a beer belly by drinking beer, do you get a pot belly by smoking pot?
Why does ‘dyslexia’ have to be so hard to spell?
If you try to fail, and succeed, which have you done?
Does God believe that there are atheists?
all these questions travel through my head.
retarded? maybe i am.
do i need to start taking sleeping pills? HELLO, DRUGGIE.
on the bright side, school is almost out!
:D
june 3rd!
OH YESSSS!!!
OH! i finished recording my song with nick.
:]
i'm pretty excited. never in my life would i have thought i would be writing songs for a band.
WOW. i guess i'm putting my insomnia to good use. sleepless nights = rhio's constant song writing. hahaha!
i've gotta sound so sincere.
i'll surely strike a chord
and you'll make your way here.
i wanna write words that move
and make your heart skip beats.
and if i can't do that
at least you'll tap your feet.
and if i should ask would you be happy
to learn these words and sing them at me.
take my hand and hold,
and show me what you know
i gotta be rational
and take my time with this.
i'm making god damn sure
there's not a thing i'll miss.
i work with a balanced heart
and never with steady hands.
when you're around i can't speak,
but i know my songs can.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
since i have one...
might as well use this little blogspot of mine. hahaha!
TODAY. was an okay day.
i've finished quite a few songs and i'm ready to start making the music for them.
hopefully nick will be ready to record them with me soon.
i started on a new song. i know what i want to write but all the words are just coming out wrong.
-_-
i've lost inspiration. my jumbled thoughts and pressure from every other aspect of my life has made it kind of difficult for me to just sit and focus.
i'll work on it some more tonight. try to make the words right. [didn't mean to gay rhyme. hahaha!]
TODAY. was an okay day.
i've finished quite a few songs and i'm ready to start making the music for them.
hopefully nick will be ready to record them with me soon.
i started on a new song. i know what i want to write but all the words are just coming out wrong.
-_-
i've lost inspiration. my jumbled thoughts and pressure from every other aspect of my life has made it kind of difficult for me to just sit and focus.
i'll work on it some more tonight. try to make the words right. [didn't mean to gay rhyme. hahaha!]
Friday, March 20, 2009
i never thought...
i could miss someone so much.
i've felt so empty these past two weeks.
i miss the heart felt texts, the random phone calls, him in general.
the only guy that stayed constant in my life...
he knows me better than i know myself...
but i have never seen him this happy...
i guess i'll just have to put up barriers again...
suck up my emotions and put on an "i'm happy for you" facade.
you smiled ever so slightly
as i held you tightly.
it was just enough for me
to fall for you hopelessly.
the morning i woke up
before one or both thought
much too heavily
about what it means to be happy.
i've felt so empty these past two weeks.
i miss the heart felt texts, the random phone calls, him in general.
the only guy that stayed constant in my life...
he knows me better than i know myself...
but i have never seen him this happy...
i guess i'll just have to put up barriers again...
suck up my emotions and put on an "i'm happy for you" facade.
you smiled ever so slightly
as i held you tightly.
it was just enough for me
to fall for you hopelessly.
the morning i woke up
before one or both thought
much too heavily
about what it means to be happy.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Goodbye, Beautiful.
it's finally hitting me and i'm breaking down. i've held my feelings in for too long. now i'm crying it all out. i don't know why. i understand that i am better than all this, but the pain has set and the nostalgia is kicking in... my heart has literally broken in two. no words can mend, it's beyond repair. it just finally hit me that it was all a lie. i have no idea how to cope and move on. i'm confused to the point where every thought is like a million words filled with anger, hate, and revenge. i'm shaken and my confidence is broken. every word of reassurance is like another stab to the heart and my eyes are seeing all of my flaws.
yet i know that i'm strong. i know this is merely something to learn from. i know that this shouldn't get me down. i know what i'm worth and i know what i can handle. it all just took me by surprise in an unexpected way. yes, i'm shaken. yes, i'm hurt. yes, my heart is not in the best condition. but i know now that it's time i stop being so forgiving. no more second chances. no more false hope. time to toughen up and make room for someone new.
yet i know that i'm strong. i know this is merely something to learn from. i know that this shouldn't get me down. i know what i'm worth and i know what i can handle. it all just took me by surprise in an unexpected way. yes, i'm shaken. yes, i'm hurt. yes, my heart is not in the best condition. but i know now that it's time i stop being so forgiving. no more second chances. no more false hope. time to toughen up and make room for someone new.
Friday, February 27, 2009
To my g-frannnd!
You, my dear, are the only boy that has stayed constant in my life since we met. [minus ross.] hahaha! you asked me to make you smile. i have no idea how to do that.
shiet. so i decided to dedicate a blog entry to you. i know. "rhio. you are bakla."
bahahaha!
thanks. i love you too jojo.
i honestly do. i dont know what i would do if you weren't here to keep me company. i'd probably be dead because you wouldn't be there to remind me to eat. or majorly depressed because i wouldn't have anyone to give me HONEST advice.
so i just wanted to thank you and REMIND you that you are the GREATEST [gayest] friend that i have ever had. these past two years have been filled with perverted/random/grotesque/orgasmic conversations that i pray will continue until we become old pruney FOBs that look like ninja turtles! OH YEAH!!! freaking shmexshey!
me looooove you lonnng time!
FO SHIZZLE mahal.
hope this makes you smile.
:D
Cause I sit on my roof and
I count up all the stars
From where I am, to
Exactly where you are
And every night finds
Me looking at the sky
Always thinking about
This boy that makes me smile
shiet. so i decided to dedicate a blog entry to you. i know. "rhio. you are bakla."
bahahaha!
thanks. i love you too jojo.
i honestly do. i dont know what i would do if you weren't here to keep me company. i'd probably be dead because you wouldn't be there to remind me to eat. or majorly depressed because i wouldn't have anyone to give me HONEST advice.
so i just wanted to thank you and REMIND you that you are the GREATEST [gayest] friend that i have ever had. these past two years have been filled with perverted/random/grotesque/orgasmic conversations that i pray will continue until we become old pruney FOBs that look like ninja turtles! OH YEAH!!! freaking shmexshey!
me looooove you lonnng time!
FO SHIZZLE mahal.
hope this makes you smile.
:D
Cause I sit on my roof and
I count up all the stars
From where I am, to
Exactly where you are
And every night finds
Me looking at the sky
Always thinking about
This boy that makes me smile
What It Means To Be Happy.
There was no sky that night, no borders for heaven or hell. No stars, no moon, just an empty canvas of grey with a silhouette of nostalgia and regret. The scent of wet pavement and diesel fuel filled the air, frigid gusts of wind scratch through thick winter coats as if they were able to make themselves warm in the cotton threads. The streetlights flicker in sync with the rhythm of the raindrops hitting the pavement. A stray dog sniffs and paws through the garbage in search of a meal that would alleviate his hunger. Dead brown leaves fall lifelessly from their branches, floating, not a clue to where they will land. The neon signs of the liquor store come on with a repulsive glow that burns irises. A group of men stand outside the liquor store door, drowning themselves in their misery disguised in alcohol. A small child sticks out her innocent hand and patiently waits for a raindrop to tap her palm, success. She smiles ever so slightly, full of satisfaction.
Through an unwashed window, the sight of teenagers conversing at a local coffee shop, they speak with bitter torment on their tongues as a deprived youth. The sound of sluggish cars honking at the nonchalant j-walker crossing the middle of the rode drives the construction workers crazy.
Couples walk by hand in hand while the lonely misfit glares with disgust and takes a grudge filled drag of his cigarette. He begins to reminisce, the memories come flooding back and the pain sets in. With a sigh he bids his emotion fatigue farewell. While staring at the ground, he spoke, not a word came out. He screamed, but there was no sound. Defeated and discouraged, he told himself, “Every night is a plane crash, every battle with God I have lost.”
Through an unwashed window, the sight of teenagers conversing at a local coffee shop, they speak with bitter torment on their tongues as a deprived youth. The sound of sluggish cars honking at the nonchalant j-walker crossing the middle of the rode drives the construction workers crazy.
Couples walk by hand in hand while the lonely misfit glares with disgust and takes a grudge filled drag of his cigarette. He begins to reminisce, the memories come flooding back and the pain sets in. With a sigh he bids his emotion fatigue farewell. While staring at the ground, he spoke, not a word came out. He screamed, but there was no sound. Defeated and discouraged, he told himself, “Every night is a plane crash, every battle with God I have lost.”
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Do i?
Has it really gotten to that point?
To the point of empty conversations and meaningless words?
That night was a lie covered by nostalgia & regret.
Do i give it another shot?
Do i take a risk and put my heart on the line again?
I'm fading into a translucent dream of confusion & hope.
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